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So the last few days haven't been the best but I've kept busy. Its seems we've worked things out. We both decided that we needed to be together. I believe I should take each day as it comes and not worry to much about my future. I love my present with him and I dont want to change that today for later. Later will come eventually, and I cannot say what later will be today because I live today not later, and if I were to live later I would miss out on today.
I have alot of soul searching to do but things will let themselves be known in due time. You can't just purge things from deep inside. Things have a way of surfacing.
So I guess this all means I have a faith; a faith in that all things happen for a reason, a strong belief in string theory, and a faith in fate.
To Do List 2005 (wants tos):
I want to become aquainted with more people. I want to make more friends. I can't wait for college for this reason. Hopefully I will find some neat people that I can get along nicely with. Those of you I never have even spoken to before and I have added as friends of my journal, say "hi" to me or wish me a "shalom" or something. I'm not jewish but sometimes I wish I were because I like those chocolate coins and matza (sp?). Im going to start commenting in people's journals more and be friendly to people I never talk to in school. I want to compliment people more instead of just thinking it in my head. I want to make people smile more. I want to be nicer to my mom, dad, dog, and grandpa. I want to remember to feed my lizards on a regular basis. I want to go to sleep before 12 am. OK I broke that one already. I dont want to get my period anymore... but that just isn't fesible right now. I want to spell better and eat more. I want to learn to go food shopping properly without having to go down each isle 2-3 times and having to go back the next day because I forgot something or realized there was still something in my basket after I already checked out and having to go to the desk for special customers who have bad memories. I want to be craftier and more artistic. I want to run the boardwalk more and stay fit and buff. I want to say 'I love you' more to people who deserve it. I want to be cuter and sillier. I want to laugh and smile more (even though if I laugh anymore than I already do I may crack a rib). I want to drive more carefully and walk more carefully, no more bumping into walls and thresholds. I want to talk more to my parents. I want to keep my room cleaner. I want to finish up highschool with great grades. The end for now.
My tummy is grumbling for food and my boyfriend is humming in my ear. Time to go and satisfy my two favourite things. Good night, sweet dreams, darlings.
I have alot of soul searching to do but things will let themselves be known in due time. You can't just purge things from deep inside. Things have a way of surfacing.
So I guess this all means I have a faith; a faith in that all things happen for a reason, a strong belief in string theory, and a faith in fate.
To Do List 2005 (wants tos):
I want to become aquainted with more people. I want to make more friends. I can't wait for college for this reason. Hopefully I will find some neat people that I can get along nicely with. Those of you I never have even spoken to before and I have added as friends of my journal, say "hi" to me or wish me a "shalom" or something. I'm not jewish but sometimes I wish I were because I like those chocolate coins and matza (sp?). Im going to start commenting in people's journals more and be friendly to people I never talk to in school. I want to compliment people more instead of just thinking it in my head. I want to make people smile more. I want to be nicer to my mom, dad, dog, and grandpa. I want to remember to feed my lizards on a regular basis. I want to go to sleep before 12 am. OK I broke that one already. I dont want to get my period anymore... but that just isn't fesible right now. I want to spell better and eat more. I want to learn to go food shopping properly without having to go down each isle 2-3 times and having to go back the next day because I forgot something or realized there was still something in my basket after I already checked out and having to go to the desk for special customers who have bad memories. I want to be craftier and more artistic. I want to run the boardwalk more and stay fit and buff. I want to say 'I love you' more to people who deserve it. I want to be cuter and sillier. I want to laugh and smile more (even though if I laugh anymore than I already do I may crack a rib). I want to drive more carefully and walk more carefully, no more bumping into walls and thresholds. I want to talk more to my parents. I want to keep my room cleaner. I want to finish up highschool with great grades. The end for now.
My tummy is grumbling for food and my boyfriend is humming in my ear. Time to go and satisfy my two favourite things. Good night, sweet dreams, darlings.