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i cannot miss what i never really had.
i refuse to fight for relationships, people, things, etc, that will not fight for me. (will not, would not, could not, did not, can not, whatthefuckever.) i deserve better.
i cannot be a contraction in the life/relationship of someone else. it is not fair to any involved.
the only people i need in my life are the ones that need me in theirs.
my life is pretty awesome most of the time. my dog is rad-tastic (yeah i said it.), my school is next to free, my grades are stellar, my jobs are engaging, my friends are fantastic, my family knows i am gay and does not hate me, and my life is still moving. i will not get bent out of shape over things i cannot change, or that others will not. it just is not my style anyway. sometimes i can wish things were different, but they are not, so fuck it.
i love my friends. and i often miss many of them. i saw sarah and michi the other day (well, i see michi every mon/wed, but anyway) and it made me miss kicking it fourth floor 430 style when it was all still okay. i hope to see them more often. and it was nice to see erin again- i forgot how good it felt when we open up to each other. and ecg makes me feel all warm and fuzzy- they are going to florida too! it is too cute. my homosocial life mate mooby is my part time lover, and i do not think i could feel this healthy if not for her. ky warming needs to be around more, but she knows i miss her. we painted a house on friday, and it was nice-turned out sweeeet. my husband needs to stop going home on weekends because wmass can suck it. and speaking of, i wish wmass had not stolen miss davidson. the TMs are fucking great, even though i pretty much rarely see them, but its nice to know we have each others backs. cait is going through some stuff, but i think she will be just fine. and everyone else is on my mind, if not in my words.
i am visiting emmatalia soon, and it makes me very happy... i hope i never lose her as a friend. fo realz. (secret: i want to convice schelton to fly out tooooooo.) it would be the best surprise ever.
overall, i think i am in a good place. i think i need to accept that i am not a priority to some, and for those some, they cannot be a priority to me. this has made me happier. things break- we fix them. you know how it goes.
Things change. And friends leave. Life doesn't stop for anybody.
true dat.
i refuse to fight for relationships, people, things, etc, that will not fight for me. (will not, would not, could not, did not, can not, whatthefuckever.) i deserve better.
i cannot be a contraction in the life/relationship of someone else. it is not fair to any involved.
the only people i need in my life are the ones that need me in theirs.
my life is pretty awesome most of the time. my dog is rad-tastic (yeah i said it.), my school is next to free, my grades are stellar, my jobs are engaging, my friends are fantastic, my family knows i am gay and does not hate me, and my life is still moving. i will not get bent out of shape over things i cannot change, or that others will not. it just is not my style anyway. sometimes i can wish things were different, but they are not, so fuck it.
i love my friends. and i often miss many of them. i saw sarah and michi the other day (well, i see michi every mon/wed, but anyway) and it made me miss kicking it fourth floor 430 style when it was all still okay. i hope to see them more often. and it was nice to see erin again- i forgot how good it felt when we open up to each other. and ecg makes me feel all warm and fuzzy- they are going to florida too! it is too cute. my homosocial life mate mooby is my part time lover, and i do not think i could feel this healthy if not for her. ky warming needs to be around more, but she knows i miss her. we painted a house on friday, and it was nice-turned out sweeeet. my husband needs to stop going home on weekends because wmass can suck it. and speaking of, i wish wmass had not stolen miss davidson. the TMs are fucking great, even though i pretty much rarely see them, but its nice to know we have each others backs. cait is going through some stuff, but i think she will be just fine. and everyone else is on my mind, if not in my words.
i am visiting emmatalia soon, and it makes me very happy... i hope i never lose her as a friend. fo realz. (secret: i want to convice schelton to fly out tooooooo.) it would be the best surprise ever.
overall, i think i am in a good place. i think i need to accept that i am not a priority to some, and for those some, they cannot be a priority to me. this has made me happier. things break- we fix them. you know how it goes.
Things change. And friends leave. Life doesn't stop for anybody.
true dat.