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It really sucks, the situation sucks. when i first met ian i wasnt even that into him, i thought he was cute but i knew it wouldnt lead to anything but it did, i wasnt planning on having a boyfriend, ive never been the commitment type, i wasnt dieing to have a boyfriend in high school, but somehow it just happened, when your friends move a away and the ones that are still here have boyfriends, i guess it makes sense, but now, i almost regret it, whats the point of learning someone inside and out, knowing what he loves and hates, and how to make him smile, if hes just going to go and move across the damn state in six months, when we are together now, we'll be laughing and smiling and somehow it always comes up, "baby you should take this class with me next semester!....oh right, you wont be here" I dont really know whats gonna happen, its hard for me to make friends because ive been chillin with the same people for so long, i think ive lost the ability to, i dont want to be alone