Feb 05, 2007 23:23
ive been thinking too much lately
ive been so fortunate so far, ive had so many good times, good vibes
i feel like i dont deserve this happyness, that something is going to break this streak of prefection and everything is going to fall apart
but i also know that the only thing that can break is my spirit, if i stop believing that things are ok, they wont be ok anymore
i have so much rage
so much burning passionate undeniable RAGE
rage at the government, at social standards, at the routine of daily life in america
no one knows what their talking about, i dont even know, i smoke every fucking day because it puts me in this calm happy sedated state of mind, and i cant stop, because i know that when im not high anymore, all that stupid bullshit is going to re enter my mind, its almost like a form of meditation, i love it
i dont care about money, just take it all you greedy little bastards! i know you want it!!! just fucking take it!! is it really going to make you happy to know that you have more than me? to know that you have that "security"
the only reason i would ever want to have anything to do with money is so i can buy food and weed, both of which i can grow myself, so FUCK YOU CURRENCY SYSTEM
i want to live completely out of the system, steal whatever i cant grow or make, deal for money so i dont have to have a job where the governemnt takes half of what i make to pay for some new murder device
there is murder being commited by our country every-single-day whether it be the millions of innocent animals that are cruelly treated and massacred, or the equally important human beings in other countries that we are bombing by the thousands
people are outraged by gay marriage. OPEN YOUR FUCKING EYES, theres a bigger picture here
people are outraged by gas prices. im outraged at where and how we are getting our gas
people are outraged by my drug use. IM OUTRAGED AT YOUR IGNORANCE, INTOLERANCE, AND IMMATURITY
i dont hurt anything when i smoke, maybe my lungs, but that is my problem alone
when you eat meat, you are contributing to pollution, torture, massacres, outsourcing, deforestation etc...
i can safely say that when i see someone eating meat, it truly disgusts me, and i know that by disliking people who eat meat i am being intolerant, but for animal's sake, who the fuck do you think you are? do you really think your better than animals? that they dont have brains, and feelings, and nerves and pain receptors? because they do, and they are just like humans, only they cant talk, they feel pain, they know when they are dieing, they can probably feel when they arent loved, when they are taken away from their family at birth, never to meet again, just because we dont understand them doesnt mean they dont deserve rights, the way i see it, its just like slavery, we torture them, tie them up, mass produce them for our own purposes, except its even worse, instead of just using them for labor, you are EATING them, and dont you dare tell me that's natural, if you went out and caught a wild pig with your own hands and chopped it up and cooked it your self, THAT is natural, buying it in a package is a complete disconnect from the real thing, i cant even eat with my own family anymore, it makes me want to rip the bloody flesh right out of their mouths and give it a decent burial
if i knew that any of this made a difference, that i could make a difference, maybe i wouldnt need pot to satisfy my constant craving for happiness, but until i can see a change, or get some good sex, marijuana will just have to do