an assortment of interesting or uninteresting thoughts
im not really sure whats going on right now, i just got this insane wave of apathy come over me and i want to do some crazy things before it washes away, i couldnt sleep at all last night but when i finally did i had a very strange dream
i deamt that i was going to go on this raft down this crazy long river and me an jon and erica for some reason were all in the raft and we went down it and it was hella dirty in the water, then it was over and i took the raft and they went home, but i wanted to go again so i took the raft with me and got a stamp on my hand so i could go again and this time i went with jenn, but she decided not to go at the last minute, so i was gonna go alone and then i saw a raft with hella people on it right next to me and whadaya no adam springer was on it and he hopped onto my raft and at first i was like wtf but he was really nice and we made friends on the raft but then i saw jon on land an he was screaming at me saying katie katie get off that raft! and i realized that adam was choking me and i tryed to get away but i just sank to the bottom of the river and i looked over and my wallet was at the bottom of the river as well, but even as i was on the bottom of the river dead, i still felt that jon was the bad person and adam was doing me a favor, i really thought that in my dream
i dono what the hell this one means but its fuckin weird, i keep having dreams about getting my wallet wet, but this was the freakiest one yet
on a completely different note, i love biking!! i can get places so much faster and i dont hafta ask for rides and its eco friendly, im acctually incredibly happy with myself right now, its just the circumstances around me that im worrying about, like my senior project, sat II, maybe getting a homecomming date, if i have the courage to ask someone, i think the hardest thing about asking people to dances isn't the fear of rejection, its just the fact that im asking someone to such a lame event, that i would even stoop so low as to go myself, maybe ill just ask someone to something the night of, but not acctually go to the dance
the problem for me, is like with val, i donohow to act, i dono what to say, ive never been in any really relationship like that before, i have no idea what im doing, i get all shy and end up avoiding them because its acctually painful to talk to someone i like, because im afraid if i say anything, it will be the wrong thing, its way to scary
i deamt that i was going to go on this raft down this crazy long river and me an jon and erica for some reason were all in the raft and we went down it and it was hella dirty in the water, then it was over and i took the raft and they went home, but i wanted to go again so i took the raft with me and got a stamp on my hand so i could go again and this time i went with jenn, but she decided not to go at the last minute, so i was gonna go alone and then i saw a raft with hella people on it right next to me and whadaya no adam springer was on it and he hopped onto my raft and at first i was like wtf but he was really nice and we made friends on the raft but then i saw jon on land an he was screaming at me saying katie katie get off that raft! and i realized that adam was choking me and i tryed to get away but i just sank to the bottom of the river and i looked over and my wallet was at the bottom of the river as well, but even as i was on the bottom of the river dead, i still felt that jon was the bad person and adam was doing me a favor, i really thought that in my dream
i dono what the hell this one means but its fuckin weird, i keep having dreams about getting my wallet wet, but this was the freakiest one yet
on a completely different note, i love biking!! i can get places so much faster and i dont hafta ask for rides and its eco friendly, im acctually incredibly happy with myself right now, its just the circumstances around me that im worrying about, like my senior project, sat II, maybe getting a homecomming date, if i have the courage to ask someone, i think the hardest thing about asking people to dances isn't the fear of rejection, its just the fact that im asking someone to such a lame event, that i would even stoop so low as to go myself, maybe ill just ask someone to something the night of, but not acctually go to the dance
the problem for me, is like with val, i donohow to act, i dono what to say, ive never been in any really relationship like that before, i have no idea what im doing, i get all shy and end up avoiding them because its acctually painful to talk to someone i like, because im afraid if i say anything, it will be the wrong thing, its way to scary