this is a much more healthy entry : )
today, i took a step outside myself and looked at my life in a strangers perspective....
i used to smoke pot to get high, cuz it was fun and showed me a really cool side of myself i didn't know i had,
then i smoked pot because i had nothin better to do,
now i smoke pot because life becomes very unpleasant for me when im not high,
i just realized it, whenever im really down and depressed, its because ive been sitting for a long time just thinking about my life and wallowing in my self-pity, i dont really have very many friends, i have a major drug problem, im very emotionaly unstable, i have crazy self-esteem issues.
when im high i dont care about any of that, im just calm and happy, and thats all i need to be, and that all that matters to me,
how dare someone try to take that away from me? how can such a life hightening substance be illigal and frowned upon?
yes, i am depressed, and i am getting a psychiatrist to help, because my friends are way to busy to have to handle my problems alongside all of theirs, im really going to try to stop being a burden on people, im going to become self-reliant, eventually, with lots of help (lol)
its true, when someone doesn't like weed,a dn they tell me so, and they refuse to smoke with me, i feel like i have personally been insulted, i feel like because they dont like pot, they dont like me either, it may sound crazy, but ive realized that because ive done so many drugs, and so many people know, im going to be looked at as crazy no matter how i act.
im growing up, i look back on things i did just a few months ago, just a few weeks ago, and im shocked, i must have changed over night.
im going to try to find a date and go to prom
i used to smoke pot to get high, cuz it was fun and showed me a really cool side of myself i didn't know i had,
then i smoked pot because i had nothin better to do,
now i smoke pot because life becomes very unpleasant for me when im not high,
i just realized it, whenever im really down and depressed, its because ive been sitting for a long time just thinking about my life and wallowing in my self-pity, i dont really have very many friends, i have a major drug problem, im very emotionaly unstable, i have crazy self-esteem issues.
when im high i dont care about any of that, im just calm and happy, and thats all i need to be, and that all that matters to me,
how dare someone try to take that away from me? how can such a life hightening substance be illigal and frowned upon?
yes, i am depressed, and i am getting a psychiatrist to help, because my friends are way to busy to have to handle my problems alongside all of theirs, im really going to try to stop being a burden on people, im going to become self-reliant, eventually, with lots of help (lol)
its true, when someone doesn't like weed,a dn they tell me so, and they refuse to smoke with me, i feel like i have personally been insulted, i feel like because they dont like pot, they dont like me either, it may sound crazy, but ive realized that because ive done so many drugs, and so many people know, im going to be looked at as crazy no matter how i act.
im growing up, i look back on things i did just a few months ago, just a few weeks ago, and im shocked, i must have changed over night.
im going to try to find a date and go to prom