bad day =[
it's days like these that make me want to come home. i don't know exactly what that would solve, but sometimes i really wish it were summer again and i could just lay around and not have anything to worry about. whats worse is today's monday, so my whole week is shot now. i guess it started off good, until stupid math. i failed the quiz because i didn't show my work. well actually, i didn't show enough work. yeah, i know, it's ridiculous, you know how your whole life teachers say, if your way works, use it? or whatever, well i got all the right answers, and still got 80% of them marked completely or partially wrong because towards the end of my work i kind of short hand it and do it quickly to save time. it's like wtf, first off, whoever graded it wasn't even consistent, because some were fully wrong, others partial, and he said "i need to watch the points", so problems worth more points need every single little step written out. that's fine i guess, but he should have graded them all the same then. and he should have said bluntly, "don't use your way, even if it works". it just really brings me down because math has always been a struggle for me, and it feels like i can't catch a break with it. it's like i spent all last week studying so hard, actually grasped everything, and was so confident that i'd done well on that quiz, just to see all my right answers marked wrong. so now i feel like even my understanding of it now is useless, i'll still somehow get everything wrong. i guess to some it seems like a lot to be complaining about, but i've never completely failed anything (especially when it's right?), and my whole attitude for the exam wednesday is just shot. and earlier it even had me questioning why i want to go into medical. i'll never have the math grades to be a doctor, i don't know now whether to change my major or what, but it seems like you "need" math for everything.
so on top of that i'm worried sick about money too. i'm not working, and i don't like it. i haven't heard back from the library so in a few minutes i'm going to call the human resources department up here and see exactly what jobs are open. i'm looking so far ahead to christmas even, and i'm wondering how i'm supposed to buy presents with no money. it literally made me feel horrible earlier. i realized i'm living off loan money, and i need the rest for books next semester. gooooddd why can't something be easy.
well one thing to look forward too, this weekend should be a nice escape. joey and ryan will be here, i'm going to jackie's black and white party, plus the notre dame game, mels even said she might come up! so i have some good things goin for me lol.
well sorry to complain so much, hopefully my next entry will tell you how awesome i did on the exam! wish me luck.
so on top of that i'm worried sick about money too. i'm not working, and i don't like it. i haven't heard back from the library so in a few minutes i'm going to call the human resources department up here and see exactly what jobs are open. i'm looking so far ahead to christmas even, and i'm wondering how i'm supposed to buy presents with no money. it literally made me feel horrible earlier. i realized i'm living off loan money, and i need the rest for books next semester. gooooddd why can't something be easy.
well one thing to look forward too, this weekend should be a nice escape. joey and ryan will be here, i'm going to jackie's black and white party, plus the notre dame game, mels even said she might come up! so i have some good things goin for me lol.
well sorry to complain so much, hopefully my next entry will tell you how awesome i did on the exam! wish me luck.