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...He's....what?
Ano...I don't know why I have so much trouble believing this.
I used to believe...well...I was always told that people died because they were weak. I know that's not always true now, but...I...
People die all the time, right? I mean...or else the world would get really really crowded. So it must be right to die sometimes.
But if it's right then why are people sad? From a glance it almost looks like all the entries on my friendslist are the same...Envy's dead...He can't be dead...He is dead...I was his friend and he's gone...I didn't know him and now I never will...How? When?...Why? ...it all seems like a blur.
One person...when you think about it the death of one person hardly seems like a lot but...so many people are affected. Kaiba-san is acting strange; even the teachers don't seem right. But only one person...why are they sad? Why am I sad? Is it right sometimes and not right other times?
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One person.....
I feel sick.
They say that the world has 6 billion people in it right now. If there are, and one dies, the calculator says, there will only be...5999999999.
5999999999 isn't that different from 6000000000. It's still a lot of people. People wouldn't even notice, is what I'd always thought. I never thought so many people would...
The calculator is supposed to give answers. ...I wish the calculator could tell me how many people I've killed...and for every one, how many people cried.
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I have to go now because I don't think I'm supposed to throw up on the computer.
[[I was too tired to write an entry yesterday--I would backdate this, but it really doesn't matter]]
Ano...I don't know why I have so much trouble believing this.
I used to believe...well...I was always told that people died because they were weak. I know that's not always true now, but...I...
People die all the time, right? I mean...or else the world would get really really crowded. So it must be right to die sometimes.
But if it's right then why are people sad? From a glance it almost looks like all the entries on my friendslist are the same...Envy's dead...He can't be dead...He is dead...I was his friend and he's gone...I didn't know him and now I never will...How? When?...Why? ...it all seems like a blur.
One person...when you think about it the death of one person hardly seems like a lot but...so many people are affected. Kaiba-san is acting strange; even the teachers don't seem right. But only one person...why are they sad? Why am I sad? Is it right sometimes and not right other times?
[Private]
One person.....
I feel sick.
They say that the world has 6 billion people in it right now. If there are, and one dies, the calculator says, there will only be...5999999999.
5999999999 isn't that different from 6000000000. It's still a lot of people. People wouldn't even notice, is what I'd always thought. I never thought so many people would...
The calculator is supposed to give answers. ...I wish the calculator could tell me how many people I've killed...and for every one, how many people cried.
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I have to go now because I don't think I'm supposed to throw up on the computer.
[[I was too tired to write an entry yesterday--I would backdate this, but it really doesn't matter]]