Day 38
I think I am going to go crazy if I dont hear his voice. I love him so much I cant even begin how to tell you. He is the only guy I no that can make me feel alive and safe at the same time. I have never felt safe with any one. I have never trusted any one as much as I trust him. I want to be with him every second of the day. I love him so much. I cant wait to spend my whole life with him. I feel his kiss a pone my lips I smell his hair against my face. I feel his breathing as he falls asleep on my lap. I love every thing about him. He is the only one who I tell every thing to. He is the person I trust every thing with. I never even trusted my own father with my life and I trust him. I no he wuld never hurt me and never try. I love the looks he gives me from the good to the bad. I love to see his face when he is horny as hell. lol!!! i love when he touches me. I love how he cant keep his hands off of me. i love when he kisses my neck the way his lips touch my skin makes me shake. i wish i was with him right now.
my b-day is in 2 days. Jeremy cant go to my party on saturday. htat makes me sad but it is just a party it is proble going ot be stupid any way so he wont miss much. i need a head count on who is going so i am going to call or see you all at school. jo you need to bring camron, heather, jennie. and dont come till 3 ok? chris i am sorry you can t go my dad wont let you b/c you got mono again. i am sorry.
Jeremy was all upset that he sould not go. he says the one thing i wanted for my birthday i could not have. i just told him all i wanted from him was to go so i could see him. and he is mad that he could not make my one birthday wish come true. he has to go do somethign for school i think. he is leaving friday at noon and comming back i think around sunday. so i guess i will see him on monday. but that is ok.
i am going to try to get a job at rams horn. josh is going to try to help me. i hope i get the job i need it. makr said i could live with him if i get kicked out. but as soon as i turn 17 i am leaving my dad and living with makr and ryanjeremy might be there by then so i will be living with him too. witch was the plan after i got out of high school so every thing is cool. lol.
jessie
my b-day is in 2 days. Jeremy cant go to my party on saturday. htat makes me sad but it is just a party it is proble going ot be stupid any way so he wont miss much. i need a head count on who is going so i am going to call or see you all at school. jo you need to bring camron, heather, jennie. and dont come till 3 ok? chris i am sorry you can t go my dad wont let you b/c you got mono again. i am sorry.
Jeremy was all upset that he sould not go. he says the one thing i wanted for my birthday i could not have. i just told him all i wanted from him was to go so i could see him. and he is mad that he could not make my one birthday wish come true. he has to go do somethign for school i think. he is leaving friday at noon and comming back i think around sunday. so i guess i will see him on monday. but that is ok.
i am going to try to get a job at rams horn. josh is going to try to help me. i hope i get the job i need it. makr said i could live with him if i get kicked out. but as soon as i turn 17 i am leaving my dad and living with makr and ryanjeremy might be there by then so i will be living with him too. witch was the plan after i got out of high school so every thing is cool. lol.
jessie