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hmm. ya know, i really don't like it that all i've been writing in here lately is complaints. i mean, one of the reasons i made this new journal is because my old one was full of depressed ranting. but i haven't updated in awhile and billy says that i need to and all i have to say right now is that today sucked. i'm not even sure exactly why it was so bad. i was just so fed up with people today. emily, the annoying bitch that she is, calling me short and a neanderthal. where does someone get that kind of nerve!? "you know, you have a very big nose, it's very prominent. does it keep you warm? the neanderthals developed large noses to keep them warm. you're also short like a neanderthal. can i call you shorty? can i call you neander?" that's the condensed version of it. she started it on friday and continued it today. i have to say my problem and disgust for people today started with her. i just couldn't cope with things today. i had a bit of an obsessive compulsive breakdown in 7'th today too. we had to be working in groups which i hate already, but i was with these 2 stupid jocks and dee and one of the stupid jocks wouldn't answer my question and things were not going right and i got a bit hysterical. dee said she was trying to help me, but it seemed to me she was just making fun of me the whole time which really just made things worse. then earlier this evening my dad tells me that we're probably gonna go to my grandparents house this weekend and that always depresses the fuck out of me so that didn't make my day any better. plus we won't be getting back until about 3 or 4 on monday so that's less time i get to spend with billy then which really sucks because sunday is our 3 month anniversary AND EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW JUST FUCKING SUCKS AND I WANT TO SCREAM!!!! ... i have a feeling that this whole week is going to be like this...