Oct 05, 2005 12:55
waking up to a phone ringing less than 10 minutes ago, talking about things you can't remember, and suddenly finding yourself standing in your living room staring out at the empty streets... empty houses... sun bright and warm... and i can't help but wondering what im doing here. there is no point to my life. i am so scared. why? im not sure... because i dont know what im going to do today.
i don't like working all the time... but if i dont have anything planned i get scared. i start thinking. what am i doing with my life? what am i GOING to do with my life? when will I wake up from this dream and be back in junior high where i fell asleep?
staring at an empty house across the street.. bathed in the crisp sunlight of early fall... i wonder what they find in life that makes it so worth living. im only 19 and im having trouble finding reasons to be here. i know they are much older... im sure their lives have been hard. how did they stand it? what keeps them going? why do i all the sudden feel like giving up?
why the hell am i so scared?
answer this. why is life worth living? for you.