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it's depressing how only material things like my new computer or new bed spread and painting are the only things that make me happy anymore.
and i want it to stop, 'cause i hate being like this, but it won't, nothing makes me happy.
besides my brother coming home tomorrow, which i am beyond excited for.
but i just feel like breaking down right now, i feel like i have nothing and no one that understands or even cares how i feel.
maybe thats not true but its the way i feel.
i want to be happy again, desperately.
i know i will be soon but
god
it just suckssss
and i want it to stop, 'cause i hate being like this, but it won't, nothing makes me happy.
besides my brother coming home tomorrow, which i am beyond excited for.
but i just feel like breaking down right now, i feel like i have nothing and no one that understands or even cares how i feel.
maybe thats not true but its the way i feel.
i want to be happy again, desperately.
i know i will be soon but
god
it just suckssss