not a girl.

[_simplicity__]

remember the song by britney spears called "Im not a girl not yet a woman" well i always thought it was probably one of the stupidest songs ever... but now i finally get it... i swear its like the realest song.

i seriously dont know who i am. i dont know what i want. i dont know anything anymore. One day im perfectly fine, and the next im so lost. There are days where im so happy with who i am and what ive become, and then there are days where i look in the mirror and think to myself "who the hell are you"

I know i can be a hardass and hide my emotions really well... but what i dont show is that i really am sensitive. Like yesterday i got off the phone with someone and just cried and cried and i got outta bed (keep in my mind it was like 230am) and i looked at myself in the mirror and just was so disgusted i couldnt stand myself.

I'll get through this though. I know i will.

I’m not a girl, not yet a woman

I used to think
I had the answers to everything
Mm but now I know
That life doesn’t always go my way. yeah
Feels like I’m caught in the middle
That’s when I realize

I’m not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I’m in between
I’m not a girl

There is no need to protect me
It’s time that i
Learned to face up to this on my own
I’ve seen so much more than you know now
So don’t tell me to shut my eyes

I’m not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I’m in between
I’m not a girl

But if you look at me closely
You will see it in my eyes
This girl will always find her way

I’m not a girl
I’m not a girl don’t tell me what to believe
Not yet a woman
I’m just tryin’ to find the woman in me, yeah
All I need is time
Whoa, all I need is time...
A moment that is mine
... that’s mine
While I’m in between
I’m not a girl
Not yet a woman
Not now
All I need is time
A moment that is mine
While I’m in between

I’m not a girl

Ooooh, not yet a woman