I'm writing a real entry for once. mmhmm.
So, I haven't really written a real entry in a while... so for anyone who cares, I'm writing one.
I'm sick of school. I can't wait for it to end so I can just sit around and do nothing all day.. except go to work. I mean, seriously, do you honestly think my friends are going to come home and want to hang out with me? Please. They're barely talking to me now and they're all home. I was lucky I even did anything at all.
I'm beginning to realize how fake people are.. this town's a joke. So is everyone in it, even if they're not here at the moment. I hate being a loner and I hate feeling left out and like nobody wants me around. I try and I try to be "in" with people but all I get is shot down. So I'm done trying if it's gonna get me nowhere. Cause frankly, I'm not going to waste my time trying to get through to someone that doesn't want to see me.
And to think, I thought they were my best friends. Ha. That term is SO overrated. What IS a best friend? Someone who you hang out with all the time, tell your deepest & darkest secrets to, and is faithful to you? Ok, yeah, then they're hard to come by. I THOUGHT I had one, a few actually, but I'm wrong. Boy am I wrong..
You guys all have fun in your "crew" or whatev, cause I'm sick of dealing with you. You wanna be stuck up eachothers asses, then be my guest. I'd rather be by myself knowing the truth than with a bunch of morons who pretend all the time. (they're not gonna read this, but whatev.)
I'm so bored with life. There's NOTHING to do around here and college sucks ass, there's nothing to do there either. I want to move away. Farrrrrrrr away. And never come back here, because honestly, waht is here that I can benefit from? I have what... 3 real friends. 2 of which I hardly ever see.
...and then there's him. He brightens up my day just by seeing his face..or a simple "hello." It's been hard the past few months, but I still hold true to everything I've ever felt. The only person who ever made me smile from the inside out, and made me feel accepted is him... and I'm never going to let it go. I don't know what's going to come of us and the relationship we h ave right now, but I hope he knows how wonderful he is and I think very highly of him.
And so, there's my random rant/update. Nothing spectacular but eh, it will do.
♥
I'm sick of school. I can't wait for it to end so I can just sit around and do nothing all day.. except go to work. I mean, seriously, do you honestly think my friends are going to come home and want to hang out with me? Please. They're barely talking to me now and they're all home. I was lucky I even did anything at all.
I'm beginning to realize how fake people are.. this town's a joke. So is everyone in it, even if they're not here at the moment. I hate being a loner and I hate feeling left out and like nobody wants me around. I try and I try to be "in" with people but all I get is shot down. So I'm done trying if it's gonna get me nowhere. Cause frankly, I'm not going to waste my time trying to get through to someone that doesn't want to see me.
And to think, I thought they were my best friends. Ha. That term is SO overrated. What IS a best friend? Someone who you hang out with all the time, tell your deepest & darkest secrets to, and is faithful to you? Ok, yeah, then they're hard to come by. I THOUGHT I had one, a few actually, but I'm wrong. Boy am I wrong..
You guys all have fun in your "crew" or whatev, cause I'm sick of dealing with you. You wanna be stuck up eachothers asses, then be my guest. I'd rather be by myself knowing the truth than with a bunch of morons who pretend all the time. (they're not gonna read this, but whatev.)
I'm so bored with life. There's NOTHING to do around here and college sucks ass, there's nothing to do there either. I want to move away. Farrrrrrrr away. And never come back here, because honestly, waht is here that I can benefit from? I have what... 3 real friends. 2 of which I hardly ever see.
...and then there's him. He brightens up my day just by seeing his face..or a simple "hello." It's been hard the past few months, but I still hold true to everything I've ever felt. The only person who ever made me smile from the inside out, and made me feel accepted is him... and I'm never going to let it go. I don't know what's going to come of us and the relationship we h ave right now, but I hope he knows how wonderful he is and I think very highly of him.
And so, there's my random rant/update. Nothing spectacular but eh, it will do.
♥