The puzzle's falling into place
Wow. I don't know what is wrong with me. Like seriously. haha.
Yesterday, I was all disgruntled about everything with Brian and after I talked to him, I realized that we're SO much better as friends.. and I'm very very content with us being that way.. he's one of the best friends I've got, if not the best, and I'm totally fine with it staying that way. I wouldn't trade our friendship for the world and us dating could ruin it, and I don't want to risk that.
I think that I thought I liked him like that, and once I got my feelings out in the open I realized that I reallly didn't.. and I was just feeling funky. But in conclusion: I actually don't. At least not enough to actually date him and to care that much. He's my best friend, and I'm going to keep it that way because things are perfect like that. We make a million times better friends at this point, anyway. He likes Kayla and I think it's awesome.. she's such a sweet girl and she's so cool.. I like her a lot too. Yayyy! He told me that the situation with him & her brought us closer together as friends, so that's cool.. as long as he doesn't ditch me cause of this. ;) haha
Ryan got pissed off at me for a little while because of everything and now I don't know what's going to happen with us.. so I don't know if he likes me more than a friend or what? I don't know how I feel about him, either, because I really didn't want to like anyone because of Tim. But as everyone knows, I'm trying to move on. And so far, it's working. I haven't talked to him in 2 days and I don't really feel upset or seem to care. But I talked to Ryan again later last night and things seem to be alright, at least more than they were earlier; he jsut said he needs to think. And I completely understand. I was an idiot for not understanding my feelings. Wow... what the hell is wrong with me? lol.
So in conclusion: Brian is my best friend, Ryan is a friend that I don't know what's going on, and Tim can suck a nut for all I care because he wants nothing from me. =) Aaaand Kayla's my coolest new friend [that's also in my psych class] that applied for a job where I work! And we're going to hang out! So, things are pretty okay. A lot more than yesterday. =D
Yesterday, I was all disgruntled about everything with Brian and after I talked to him, I realized that we're SO much better as friends.. and I'm very very content with us being that way.. he's one of the best friends I've got, if not the best, and I'm totally fine with it staying that way. I wouldn't trade our friendship for the world and us dating could ruin it, and I don't want to risk that.
I think that I thought I liked him like that, and once I got my feelings out in the open I realized that I reallly didn't.. and I was just feeling funky. But in conclusion: I actually don't. At least not enough to actually date him and to care that much. He's my best friend, and I'm going to keep it that way because things are perfect like that. We make a million times better friends at this point, anyway. He likes Kayla and I think it's awesome.. she's such a sweet girl and she's so cool.. I like her a lot too. Yayyy! He told me that the situation with him & her brought us closer together as friends, so that's cool.. as long as he doesn't ditch me cause of this. ;) haha
Ryan got pissed off at me for a little while because of everything and now I don't know what's going to happen with us.. so I don't know if he likes me more than a friend or what? I don't know how I feel about him, either, because I really didn't want to like anyone because of Tim. But as everyone knows, I'm trying to move on. And so far, it's working. I haven't talked to him in 2 days and I don't really feel upset or seem to care. But I talked to Ryan again later last night and things seem to be alright, at least more than they were earlier; he jsut said he needs to think. And I completely understand. I was an idiot for not understanding my feelings. Wow... what the hell is wrong with me? lol.
So in conclusion: Brian is my best friend, Ryan is a friend that I don't know what's going on, and Tim can suck a nut for all I care because he wants nothing from me. =) Aaaand Kayla's my coolest new friend [that's also in my psych class] that applied for a job where I work! And we're going to hang out! So, things are pretty okay. A lot more than yesterday. =D