blah blah to good friend

[_silverspoons]

"I only mean that I had confused priorities, shallow vision, no tools for dealing with my feelings, no way to understand my calling
I was running in a serious wrong direction trying so hard to be a "musician"
I had turned off a whole part of myself that as a child was interested in spiritual mystic things
in exchange for some crazy thing i didn't understand about, still don't
in all honesty I have no idea about it, I live today and forget it in exchange for the new day tomorrow"