heeereee we gooo
i love late night posts....so much time to think. usually about nothing, but tonights an exception. im thinking about a very special person and the very important role they have in my life. the role of my closest friend. without this person, many questions would go unanswered. and a lot of things would have no purpose. they are the person i constantly ask for advice, the one i have no problem sharing my entire life with. the person who knows exactly what im going through, and is there to hold my hand along the way. the one who is willing to sit and listen to me ramble on about how miserable my life is, even though what im dealing with, probably isnt half as bad as what they've already dealt with. yet, they continue to listen, give support where they feel its needed, and they dont complain. not many people can say that have a friend like i have. im lucky. i know. few people know how it feels to be loved in a way thats simply unexplainable. but im fortunate enough to know how it feels to be truly cared about. its one of the best feelings in the world. one that i wish every person could experience. one that i hope never goes away, or dies out. and one that can grow.
when you spend a long time apart, you try to convince yourself that maybe things are changing, it might be better if you just move on. you get to thinking that things will never work and you should stop trying. but then, when you see that person for the first time in a week, or a month or 6 weeks. that feeling comes back and tells you that you cant give up on them. its begging you to hold on and to never let go. its like a total repeat of the day you met. the day you told yourself that you wanted to get to know them better. the day you made that decision that will forever change your life. although you may not feel as if you are IN LOVE with this person, but you know deep down that you LOVE them for who they are. theres a mighty big difference between being in love and loving someone. being in love is when you cant stop thinking about them. when you never want to see them in pain, and how you always want them to be happy, even if you arent there to share their happiness. loving someone however, is different. loving a person means you like them for who they are. you dont judge, you dont want them to change. and if something were to happen to them, you wouldnt know what to do. so you see, being in love and loving someone have two totally different meanings.
i could go on and on about how dear this person is to me. and how essential they are. but i wont. its probably pointless anyway. things may be changing on their side. i really hope not, but things happen. i just want to let you know that i realize how tough it is. and i share in your pain. going this long without so much as seeing your smile, is killing me. but i try not to let it show. i dont know why i do that, it just happens. but i can hide it any longer. i miss you. i miss you more then you will ever know. you are thought about with every breath i take. Max, i love you with all my heart and a hundred times more. thank you for always being there for me even if you had more important things to do. i know i can always depend on you for anything and i appreciate it. your loved very much. always remember that.
*dont be afraid to tell the people you love, that you love them. one day, you might not have the chance.*
when you spend a long time apart, you try to convince yourself that maybe things are changing, it might be better if you just move on. you get to thinking that things will never work and you should stop trying. but then, when you see that person for the first time in a week, or a month or 6 weeks. that feeling comes back and tells you that you cant give up on them. its begging you to hold on and to never let go. its like a total repeat of the day you met. the day you told yourself that you wanted to get to know them better. the day you made that decision that will forever change your life. although you may not feel as if you are IN LOVE with this person, but you know deep down that you LOVE them for who they are. theres a mighty big difference between being in love and loving someone. being in love is when you cant stop thinking about them. when you never want to see them in pain, and how you always want them to be happy, even if you arent there to share their happiness. loving someone however, is different. loving a person means you like them for who they are. you dont judge, you dont want them to change. and if something were to happen to them, you wouldnt know what to do. so you see, being in love and loving someone have two totally different meanings.
i could go on and on about how dear this person is to me. and how essential they are. but i wont. its probably pointless anyway. things may be changing on their side. i really hope not, but things happen. i just want to let you know that i realize how tough it is. and i share in your pain. going this long without so much as seeing your smile, is killing me. but i try not to let it show. i dont know why i do that, it just happens. but i can hide it any longer. i miss you. i miss you more then you will ever know. you are thought about with every breath i take. Max, i love you with all my heart and a hundred times more. thank you for always being there for me even if you had more important things to do. i know i can always depend on you for anything and i appreciate it. your loved very much. always remember that.
*dont be afraid to tell the people you love, that you love them. one day, you might not have the chance.*