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i have to admit but this seems kind of childish...what i'm about to say...but i think u'll understand.
so i met this guy at my sisters wedding. its one of her and her husbands really good friends that i've just never met before for some god aweful reason. because if i had met him before this wedding...we'd already be together in my opinion.
hes amazing...with a capital 'A'. hes everything i would want in a guy. like its kind of surreal. hes gone through college, he has a job, he doesn't live at home, he COOKS (and very well in fact)....
and i think one of the most important and probably lamest thing of all is the fact that when i kiss him my heart actually beats faster and i actually have to catch my breath. if someone can have that kind of effect on me by just kissing me...then its gotta be something good.
this guy for once just makes me want to turn the cheek to every other male being on the planet because for right now...hes all i need...and i'm really glad that thats something i can say.
i really hope that this all works out in the best way it can and that i don't fuck things up...because i'm seriously trying to not fuck things up. i'm really well known for being the fucker-uper in most of the relationships that i'm in. so i've decided to go about this one totally different. i shall act how i act around anyone else, i am not going to try extra hard, i'm not going to hide anything from my past, i'm basically not going to try to be someone i'm not. if i want to find someone i have to find someone who will actually like me for me....all of me.
as for an update of the rest of the summer...its been basically a bunch of work and drinking and watching movies. u know all that good stuff. oh yeah and my eye incident...that was ugly...if u want to know more u can just ask me about that one. i'm sick of explaining the story over and over again.
so there you go. i'm still considerably happy. now that i've looked back at the last year or so....it hasn't been so bad. its actually been pretty good. i don't have any really shitty times to dwell on and i'm glad for that. i hope that things will continue in a positive direction...i think thats what i need to keep going the way that i have.
alright thats it.
Ashley
so i met this guy at my sisters wedding. its one of her and her husbands really good friends that i've just never met before for some god aweful reason. because if i had met him before this wedding...we'd already be together in my opinion.
hes amazing...with a capital 'A'. hes everything i would want in a guy. like its kind of surreal. hes gone through college, he has a job, he doesn't live at home, he COOKS (and very well in fact)....
and i think one of the most important and probably lamest thing of all is the fact that when i kiss him my heart actually beats faster and i actually have to catch my breath. if someone can have that kind of effect on me by just kissing me...then its gotta be something good.
this guy for once just makes me want to turn the cheek to every other male being on the planet because for right now...hes all i need...and i'm really glad that thats something i can say.
i really hope that this all works out in the best way it can and that i don't fuck things up...because i'm seriously trying to not fuck things up. i'm really well known for being the fucker-uper in most of the relationships that i'm in. so i've decided to go about this one totally different. i shall act how i act around anyone else, i am not going to try extra hard, i'm not going to hide anything from my past, i'm basically not going to try to be someone i'm not. if i want to find someone i have to find someone who will actually like me for me....all of me.
as for an update of the rest of the summer...its been basically a bunch of work and drinking and watching movies. u know all that good stuff. oh yeah and my eye incident...that was ugly...if u want to know more u can just ask me about that one. i'm sick of explaining the story over and over again.
so there you go. i'm still considerably happy. now that i've looked back at the last year or so....it hasn't been so bad. its actually been pretty good. i don't have any really shitty times to dwell on and i'm glad for that. i hope that things will continue in a positive direction...i think thats what i need to keep going the way that i have.
alright thats it.
Ashley