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I miss being all Genki. I don't know why it's gone... but it is. I miss all my peppy entries... maa ne
So, I've decided that I am going to talk to my boss and sign on for fulltime work this summer... cause I really need the money. Desperately...
I want to redo my compy. To some extent. I want it to run smoothly, and not to be as loud (although I can't sleep without the humming...), and I just want it to be top of the line. I'm so scared it's gonna crash on me and I'll lose everything.
I need to make awesome connections. Not famous connections, but people connections. I really just want to know people from all over the world. Hopefully it'll work out kinda like that with the International student place.
Am I bad for being happy being a nerd and average? I don't really care if I get bad grades, as long as I pass the class. Most people I come in contact with, outside of my group of friends, are busting their butts to be at the top. I could care less if I'm at the top. And I have a very select mode of conversation. Anything and everything can relate back to my obsessions, and if people have a problem with that, then so what. But... I feel like I should have more to me than just that obsession... I need to learn about other things... and then I do... just more Japanese boybands... lol. What else can I get into that would spread myself out? I don't do anything fun. People have such interesting adventures and talk about their days, what they've done... but I don't have that advantage. I can't go futher than about a 20 min drive from my house... and I don't have tons of friends to hang out with. Maybe this is why I want out so bad. Not that I have anything against my friends that I do have... but I just want to be able to experience something new. My dad doesn't want me to want to leave... but it's more than him just telling me to do my hw... I would change even more if I didn't live at home.
Why am i feeling so bleh?? When did this happen?? Is it just the weekend?? I don't enjoy the weekend very much... but now that summer's here, maybe I will. I want to do two different dress up now... one G@ME illegal... and one total goth. And I think maybe I'll start wearing make-up again... once my skin clears up. Damn skin... >|
I hate these pity me posts... the next post will be happy... and to leave off with happy... I'll... RAINBOWS!!! >.< kyaaa!!! <3
So, I've decided that I am going to talk to my boss and sign on for fulltime work this summer... cause I really need the money. Desperately...
I want to redo my compy. To some extent. I want it to run smoothly, and not to be as loud (although I can't sleep without the humming...), and I just want it to be top of the line. I'm so scared it's gonna crash on me and I'll lose everything.
I need to make awesome connections. Not famous connections, but people connections. I really just want to know people from all over the world. Hopefully it'll work out kinda like that with the International student place.
Am I bad for being happy being a nerd and average? I don't really care if I get bad grades, as long as I pass the class. Most people I come in contact with, outside of my group of friends, are busting their butts to be at the top. I could care less if I'm at the top. And I have a very select mode of conversation. Anything and everything can relate back to my obsessions, and if people have a problem with that, then so what. But... I feel like I should have more to me than just that obsession... I need to learn about other things... and then I do... just more Japanese boybands... lol. What else can I get into that would spread myself out? I don't do anything fun. People have such interesting adventures and talk about their days, what they've done... but I don't have that advantage. I can't go futher than about a 20 min drive from my house... and I don't have tons of friends to hang out with. Maybe this is why I want out so bad. Not that I have anything against my friends that I do have... but I just want to be able to experience something new. My dad doesn't want me to want to leave... but it's more than him just telling me to do my hw... I would change even more if I didn't live at home.
Why am i feeling so bleh?? When did this happen?? Is it just the weekend?? I don't enjoy the weekend very much... but now that summer's here, maybe I will. I want to do two different dress up now... one G@ME illegal... and one total goth. And I think maybe I'll start wearing make-up again... once my skin clears up. Damn skin... >|
I hate these pity me posts... the next post will be happy... and to leave off with happy... I'll... RAINBOWS!!! >.< kyaaa!!! <3