Oh gosh!
So, Derrick, came home.
and this makes me way happy, but then again way bummed,
because i think i will see him this saturday, but i dont know how its going to be between us now.
i missed him alot since he has been gone, and im sure everyone who reads this or my old journal realized that i really cared for him and bitched about him being gone, ALOT.
Im super worried about seeing him and having all my feelings rush back and have him be like "pshhttt bitch, i can do so much better then you, get away"
Its been two months since he has been gone, and we havent been 'with' each other, or whatever he put it as, but have you ever just felt so comfortable around someone that you honestly, no matter how hard you try, can not get the person out of your head, no matter what you do?
Because thats the way it is with him, and im so scared of putting myself through shit when guys again.
Maybe im just being gay, plus i dont really deserve a guy like him anyway./
♥ive got a single silver bullet,
i shot right through my heart,
to prove i cant survive without you.♥
and this makes me way happy, but then again way bummed,
because i think i will see him this saturday, but i dont know how its going to be between us now.
i missed him alot since he has been gone, and im sure everyone who reads this or my old journal realized that i really cared for him and bitched about him being gone, ALOT.
Im super worried about seeing him and having all my feelings rush back and have him be like "pshhttt bitch, i can do so much better then you, get away"
Its been two months since he has been gone, and we havent been 'with' each other, or whatever he put it as, but have you ever just felt so comfortable around someone that you honestly, no matter how hard you try, can not get the person out of your head, no matter what you do?
Because thats the way it is with him, and im so scared of putting myself through shit when guys again.
Maybe im just being gay, plus i dont really deserve a guy like him anyway./
♥ive got a single silver bullet,
i shot right through my heart,
to prove i cant survive without you.♥