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-so last day of spring break...i hate sundays, but this one especially sucks because it's the end of so many things.
-tonight's kyle's last night...i can't believe it's actually tomorrow that he leaves. it seems like i've been hearing that he was going away for like forever and it just always seemed like it wasn't gonna happen and it is. i just hope that sam will be okay and that he talks to me about how he's feeling. and i hope that angi's okay.
-and i think it's all a million times worse to me because now i know that sam's leaving. he decided to tell me yesterday that he wants to do FUCKING ACTIVE DUTY. i cried, of course. he just keeps changing his mind cuz he wants to be mr. military hard-ass guy, and he doesn't think about me at all or how i feel. argh, i know it sounds selfish, but we're making all these plans about our life together and crap like this just keeps coming up.
-i'm gonna be a wreck when he leaves. at least it's gonna be at a time when everything's really busy and crazy and there's all the paris/college stuff going on. i need him to be here for prom. but at least i have alex to keep me going if he leaves before.
-alrite, i'm off. every1 please just pray for sam, that the 4 months will go by fast and we'll both be okay, ****that he won't get shipped overseas at ANY TIME****, that he's okay whatever happens, and for kyle and that he comes back safe.
-tonight's kyle's last night...i can't believe it's actually tomorrow that he leaves. it seems like i've been hearing that he was going away for like forever and it just always seemed like it wasn't gonna happen and it is. i just hope that sam will be okay and that he talks to me about how he's feeling. and i hope that angi's okay.
-and i think it's all a million times worse to me because now i know that sam's leaving. he decided to tell me yesterday that he wants to do FUCKING ACTIVE DUTY. i cried, of course. he just keeps changing his mind cuz he wants to be mr. military hard-ass guy, and he doesn't think about me at all or how i feel. argh, i know it sounds selfish, but we're making all these plans about our life together and crap like this just keeps coming up.
-i'm gonna be a wreck when he leaves. at least it's gonna be at a time when everything's really busy and crazy and there's all the paris/college stuff going on. i need him to be here for prom. but at least i have alex to keep me going if he leaves before.
-alrite, i'm off. every1 please just pray for sam, that the 4 months will go by fast and we'll both be okay, ****that he won't get shipped overseas at ANY TIME****, that he's okay whatever happens, and for kyle and that he comes back safe.