"...smoke my mind to feel better for a small time..."

[_shake_it_fast]

wow, all i want to do is tell you something. something that you're not ready for, something that i dont want to admit. all i want to do is break down this barrier, the barrier that i dont want to cross. all i want to do is "get better". all i want is for you to except me despite of it, i can't afford you getting angry or disapointed at me. all i need is for you to stand by my side so i know you'll go through this with me. i need you there so i can get through this. hell, who am i kidding-i'm never going to be strong enough, scared enough, pissed off enough to ever say the words that i dread to ever admit. ah crap..here i go again.

--i think i've reached a new low, even for me--

(you think you know, but you have no idea)