all starry-eyed

[_shake]

i'm so low
so deep down
underground
beneath the damp roots
and rotting bodies
cold, cold, cold
like rock
and all of this.
LIFE
just hurts so much
and everytime
i think its a nightmare
and i'm waking up
another monster pops up
screaming in my face
and i can't
run away
i'm trapped
in my own loneliness
in my own fear
of rejection
that seems to be
the course of life
over
and over
and over
i just want
to get away
to disappear
or find
something
that makes me want to live.