ew gross
ive been gaining weight.
therefore i am back on my smoking weed, not eating, and pro-ana water diet.
its better this way.
the thought always crosses my mind to just give up, let myself go, and get really fat but, i have my 100lb. fiance keeping me motivated.
in no way does he approve of my "diets & fasts" that i go on, but he wants to see me happy.
i made a new friend MELISSY!!
she is amazing to say the least.
one of the only people i really know in this state or want to know as a matter of fact.
she gets me.
i love hanging out with her.
always fun times.
i still really miss colorado.
i never thought that i would miss the place i hated so much.
maybe because it is where i grew up?
maybe because i never realized that asside from all the bullshit, lies, and rumors, there were actually some poeple that loved and cared about me.
i am extremely looking foward to the years ahead.
