you got your mouth full
today was a VERY good day, i was just in a bad mood.
in band, i got complimented a lot by darbs. they weren't really worth anything, seeing as what he has to work with. i mean, im an AMAZING percussionist compared to these other kids on their horns, yannow? in 2nd block we just had a party. i had 3 donuts =X and a half a pack of starburst, and we watched mulan. i absolutely love amanda barkley and corbin. i just have so much fun with them. anyway, in chemistry, we got grade reports. 93 bitch! highest grade in the class. that made my day, i was superhappy at lunch, but my mood was fake, you could tell. we went to the library for the second half of class for our element reports. im almost finished with mine (snort). what a nerd. in fourth block, we just read. when we got finished with our reading logs i kept reading my online book that i printed out. its like the 30th time i read it, i love it too much hahaha.
but after school, i dont know, my mood just went downhill fast. i walked to the old cafeteria to meet up to my usual group of friends after school (riley, justin, jose, tick tack, stephen, cameron, etc.) and i just started crying. it was ridiculous and emo. i hate it when it happens.
i think i like morgan. i can't like morgan, because i think i like eric. im a crush-whore. i hate it. im so insecure i'll like anyone that i think might like me back. and i just do it for attention, because i want someone to tell me im beautiful, or funny, or witty. i just want tons of compliments, and all the attention. i hate that. i don't want to like morgan. hes not even my "type". what the hell am i doing? we dont have anything in common. its ridiculous but i secretly wanted him to give me a really big hug and tell me itd be okay when i was crying. i don't want to feel like that about ANY guy right now...except i do. i want someone to fill the hole matt left.
tomorrow is the JCL field trip. yessssssssssssss. need to go pack my CD player and books for the bus ride. norman = far away. far away on a bus = uncool.
also, i ♥ vic and lorra so much. they're some of the best girls i've ever met. they don't deserve to go through all the things theyre going through right now. i love them so much.i love all my friends, but these girls just amaze me with what they can bring themselves through.
also, im thinking about going back to my silver-and-black eyes with bright red lipstick again. i kind of miss it.
in band, i got complimented a lot by darbs. they weren't really worth anything, seeing as what he has to work with. i mean, im an AMAZING percussionist compared to these other kids on their horns, yannow? in 2nd block we just had a party. i had 3 donuts =X and a half a pack of starburst, and we watched mulan. i absolutely love amanda barkley and corbin. i just have so much fun with them. anyway, in chemistry, we got grade reports. 93 bitch! highest grade in the class. that made my day, i was superhappy at lunch, but my mood was fake, you could tell. we went to the library for the second half of class for our element reports. im almost finished with mine (snort). what a nerd. in fourth block, we just read. when we got finished with our reading logs i kept reading my online book that i printed out. its like the 30th time i read it, i love it too much hahaha.
but after school, i dont know, my mood just went downhill fast. i walked to the old cafeteria to meet up to my usual group of friends after school (riley, justin, jose, tick tack, stephen, cameron, etc.) and i just started crying. it was ridiculous and emo. i hate it when it happens.
i think i like morgan. i can't like morgan, because i think i like eric. im a crush-whore. i hate it. im so insecure i'll like anyone that i think might like me back. and i just do it for attention, because i want someone to tell me im beautiful, or funny, or witty. i just want tons of compliments, and all the attention. i hate that. i don't want to like morgan. hes not even my "type". what the hell am i doing? we dont have anything in common. its ridiculous but i secretly wanted him to give me a really big hug and tell me itd be okay when i was crying. i don't want to feel like that about ANY guy right now...except i do. i want someone to fill the hole matt left.
tomorrow is the JCL field trip. yessssssssssssss. need to go pack my CD player and books for the bus ride. norman = far away. far away on a bus = uncool.
also, i ♥ vic and lorra so much. they're some of the best girls i've ever met. they don't deserve to go through all the things theyre going through right now. i love them so much.i love all my friends, but these girls just amaze me with what they can bring themselves through.
also, im thinking about going back to my silver-and-black eyes with bright red lipstick again. i kind of miss it.