5 days of junk..
February 28, 2005 (yeah, it's slightly old..)
I can't stand Spanish class. Señora Aubrey is awful. She gives these tiny little sheets of paper to keep, which grow in number, and destroy folders! It's the end of the world as we know it! The broken folders will mold together to create an evil being that will eat anything and anyone in it's path. AHH!!!
Thta's enough of that. I've lost it completely. Hell, I never had it. I had crap for sleep last night. I had to use a crappy old pillow. I think something bit me last night. And the TV doesn't even have a sleep timer on it, so it was on all night. I should have gotten up and turned it off, but ... I was too tired to be bothered. I hate staying in the basement the way it is. My brother is constantly down there, it's crawling with bugs, and it's COLD! I can't believe that my grandma was selfish enough to do something like that. Sarah agrees that suicide is perhaps the most selfish act that there is. To top THAT off, I think that she just wanted attention. If she had wanted to do it, she would have. Not to sound mean or anything. I don't know what we would have done. Our family would have completely broken down. But she called Brenda to tell her about it. That makes it, in my opinion, a cry for attention. The world does not revolve around her! I never thought I'd say this, but at the moment I can't stand to be around her. She gets on my nerves, the way she's always trying to be right there with me. The rest of my family knows how to give me my space. She can't spend every moment of every day with me, or with my family for that matter. She needs to learn to do things on her own. She's a grown woman! If her son is doing fine on his own, why can't she? See? See?! She got what she wanted. I'm wasting valuable journal space on this! She wanted attention and she's getting it, even if she doesn't know it. Damn it!
Jen's bugged by something, and she won't tell me what it is. I think that she's too busy telling someone else via note what it is to tell me. I swear, that's the way it works. I'm a stepping stone for people to get more popular. She was a good friend until she met Allison and co., and now I'm not important. The same thing happened with Carrie, and that bitch Amy Randall. I'm sure there were more, I just can't think of them at the moment.
I hate history class. All the damn freshman think they're so great. I can't stand it. They're not! I swear, most freshman are so damn stuck up! They think that everyone is below them. As if! 2007 4ever bay-bee! Heh. Yeah. I'm a litt--- very crazy. Oh well.
Tomorrow, the new Case Closed DVD comes out! Yay! I can't believe I'm so hooked on it still, but I can't help it at the same time. The episodes on this one don't look all that great, but that doesn't matter. I'm getting it anyway. Thhis one is the last DVD is case 4. I'm REALLY waiting for 96. That'll be a good one. And whichever one Kaito Kid comes in. And when they make the art better! Yay! That'll show a lot of people! "The show sucks because the animation it bad." You dumbass! It gets better! I wonder what'll happen after 104, though. They said they would do the entire series. But since AS refused to buy more episodes, I don't know if they'll stick to it. I suppose all I can do is hope.
Dad is supposed to fix the computer today or something (note: this is from Monday...). I know that it probably won't get done, but once again, I can hope ... Skipping ... AH! I want the computer back!
I should get to work. I SHOULD be reading And Then There Were None for next hour. But there's so much I need to write, especially after my last journal was stolen - yes, stolen! Some jackass in Mrs. Dolan's 6th hour took it. There was a lot of .. stuff in that journal. I doubt this one will compare much. I had a picture in the front of it that I absolutely loved! And it's not something that I can ever recreate. I hope I find it again, if just for that one picture. It's sloppy, but it's got something in it that I just love. I'm going to seriously injure whoever stole it. Damn them (whoever they are)! Damn them to hell!
You know what else pisses me off? The fact that no one has any idea who I am. I mean, sure, there are a few people who know my by name, but, I mean, not many people knew who I was when I won that writing contest. "Oh, Megan -----? Good job. Wait .. Who's that?" I hate it! I could try and make myself a littly more .. know, but what'll that do? I don't know. It's just really annoying. I mean, the person who has my journal probably has no idea who I am, and probably couldn't pick my out of a crowd if I had a nametag on. Sad, but true. Either way, though, I'm still going to destroy whoever it was that took my journal...with my trusty hammer! Mwuahaha!
Back to semi-sanity...
...Skipping...
Oh yeah! I've got an interview to do today after school. I look like hell, and she's going to take a picture. Oh goody... I'm not good at answering questions in interviews. I get really nervous talking to people about that sort of thing. I'm afraid I'll say something stupid, and then have it put in the paper. And over the phone, the woman seemed very intimidating to me - very professional, and very good at what she does. I don't know what I'd do if I made a fool of myself. I guess I'll know in an hour or so. I wonder how long it'll take...
I'm trying to read the Dune series, as blue suggested (AH! I forgot his name!). It's confusing. And at the same time, I'm trying to read the Sherlock mysteries and East of Eden by Steinbeck. That's not a book I'd read if I was just browsing a store, but the idea of such an evil lady got my attention. I started to get into it .. and then I left it in some class or another. Smart, ain't I? I'll find it tommorrow, I guess.
It's starting to get busy. I've got a band thing all day next Tuesday, and orthodontist appointment to reschedule. My granma's here, so that's a mess. My play is being performed on the 17, 18, 19, and 20th of March. Homework's starting to seriously pack on again. I HATE advanced algebra. Mr. Curtis gives us too much homework. In April, the Spanish twip comes up. And in may .. oh my, May's going to be crazy. Band concert and Bismarck Band Day, my birthday (yay!), and .. lots of other stuff. Okay, it doesn't sound like much now. I'm confused. I thought there was more...
... Okay, yeah, moving on...
Math is awful. I have absolutely no problems with logarithms. They're easy. I can do them. I do, however, have a real problem graphing them. It just takes too much time! I don't have that kind of time! So guess what? It doesn't get done and I get in trouble. Bloody hell on a stick! My dad can't even help anymore. ... Wait, that's not surprising...
Crap! I forgot that I left my CD in the Teen Center! Yep, I left my 3 Doors Down CD in the CD drive of a computer at the teen center. I'll have to go there tomorrow and get it. Heh .. I ain't very smart, am I?
Or not. The computer didn't get fixed, so I'm going to be in trouble in math tomorrow because I can't get any help. Stupid logarithm graphs. I HATE GRAPHING! AHHH!!!!!
Anyway, I think I've written enough ... Yeah, definitely enough. nd I'm starting to get tired. AND the good ol' 9:00 TV is starting to come on. So ... yeah. That's all, folks!
I'm not actually stopping there. Ooooooooh no. We've got a long way to go.
March 1, 2005
FIRE ZE MISSILES!
... But I am le tired...
Fine, take a nap. ZEN FIRE ZE MISSILES!!!
Yeah, I've lost it. I'm tired and a bit random and out of it at the same time. I've got the "end of the world" thing stuck in my head for some odd reason. I'm so messed up.
And Australia's still like, "WTF, mates?"
They should be, with me around. Hehe. I'd be scared and confused, too. Boredom's really getting to me. I can't think of much to journal...
Sarah was on CCAM Idol today. She did really good, although she didn't quite hit the low notes. There was another couple of girls singing a duet, and they did good, too. Tomorrow should be hilarious. It's going to be Lazer and Jennifer (AKA Shiori). They're both a bit .. off. Anyway, the whole thing is pretty entertaining. I wonder what the prize is...
I think that the interview went alright yesterday. My picture wasn't all that great, but it's okay. The woman wasn't nearly as intimidating as I'd imagined. She didn't try to seem too professional, and mostly we just talked .. while she took notes on the conversation. Overall, I think it went well.
A little weird - that math student teacher person thing - whatever he is - called Mr. Curtis...anyway, he said something about a playwriting course to be at lunch. That's just great. I write for fun. I don't think I could force myself to write something like a play for a class.
Science is boring. It's way too simple. I'm done with the entire paper, and they're still on the first side! Bloody freshman anyway .. they think they rule the school. They don't even know how to .. well .. how to LEARN! Friggin retards..
Journalism is awful. Mrs. Scheeler's voice alone really bugs me, and we waste time on the most annoying things. The class is so dull. I'm not interested in ANYTHING that we do in this class. I should have just taken Driver's Ed. I really need to be able to practice driving, and I don't want to have to ask my parents to teach me. Yeah, journalism SUCKS!!!!!
Getting late now. Gotta go.
And actually, it is getting kind of late. I'll have to put up the last three entries tomorrow. Ciao folks!
THE MEG
I can't stand Spanish class. Señora Aubrey is awful. She gives these tiny little sheets of paper to keep, which grow in number, and destroy folders! It's the end of the world as we know it! The broken folders will mold together to create an evil being that will eat anything and anyone in it's path. AHH!!!
Thta's enough of that. I've lost it completely. Hell, I never had it. I had crap for sleep last night. I had to use a crappy old pillow. I think something bit me last night. And the TV doesn't even have a sleep timer on it, so it was on all night. I should have gotten up and turned it off, but ... I was too tired to be bothered. I hate staying in the basement the way it is. My brother is constantly down there, it's crawling with bugs, and it's COLD! I can't believe that my grandma was selfish enough to do something like that. Sarah agrees that suicide is perhaps the most selfish act that there is. To top THAT off, I think that she just wanted attention. If she had wanted to do it, she would have. Not to sound mean or anything. I don't know what we would have done. Our family would have completely broken down. But she called Brenda to tell her about it. That makes it, in my opinion, a cry for attention. The world does not revolve around her! I never thought I'd say this, but at the moment I can't stand to be around her. She gets on my nerves, the way she's always trying to be right there with me. The rest of my family knows how to give me my space. She can't spend every moment of every day with me, or with my family for that matter. She needs to learn to do things on her own. She's a grown woman! If her son is doing fine on his own, why can't she? See? See?! She got what she wanted. I'm wasting valuable journal space on this! She wanted attention and she's getting it, even if she doesn't know it. Damn it!
Jen's bugged by something, and she won't tell me what it is. I think that she's too busy telling someone else via note what it is to tell me. I swear, that's the way it works. I'm a stepping stone for people to get more popular. She was a good friend until she met Allison and co., and now I'm not important. The same thing happened with Carrie, and that bitch Amy Randall. I'm sure there were more, I just can't think of them at the moment.
I hate history class. All the damn freshman think they're so great. I can't stand it. They're not! I swear, most freshman are so damn stuck up! They think that everyone is below them. As if! 2007 4ever bay-bee! Heh. Yeah. I'm a litt--- very crazy. Oh well.
Tomorrow, the new Case Closed DVD comes out! Yay! I can't believe I'm so hooked on it still, but I can't help it at the same time. The episodes on this one don't look all that great, but that doesn't matter. I'm getting it anyway. Thhis one is the last DVD is case 4. I'm REALLY waiting for 96. That'll be a good one. And whichever one Kaito Kid comes in. And when they make the art better! Yay! That'll show a lot of people! "The show sucks because the animation it bad." You dumbass! It gets better! I wonder what'll happen after 104, though. They said they would do the entire series. But since AS refused to buy more episodes, I don't know if they'll stick to it. I suppose all I can do is hope.
Dad is supposed to fix the computer today or something (note: this is from Monday...). I know that it probably won't get done, but once again, I can hope ... Skipping ... AH! I want the computer back!
I should get to work. I SHOULD be reading And Then There Were None for next hour. But there's so much I need to write, especially after my last journal was stolen - yes, stolen! Some jackass in Mrs. Dolan's 6th hour took it. There was a lot of .. stuff in that journal. I doubt this one will compare much. I had a picture in the front of it that I absolutely loved! And it's not something that I can ever recreate. I hope I find it again, if just for that one picture. It's sloppy, but it's got something in it that I just love. I'm going to seriously injure whoever stole it. Damn them (whoever they are)! Damn them to hell!
You know what else pisses me off? The fact that no one has any idea who I am. I mean, sure, there are a few people who know my by name, but, I mean, not many people knew who I was when I won that writing contest. "Oh, Megan -----? Good job. Wait .. Who's that?" I hate it! I could try and make myself a littly more .. know, but what'll that do? I don't know. It's just really annoying. I mean, the person who has my journal probably has no idea who I am, and probably couldn't pick my out of a crowd if I had a nametag on. Sad, but true. Either way, though, I'm still going to destroy whoever it was that took my journal...with my trusty hammer! Mwuahaha!
Back to semi-sanity...
...Skipping...
Oh yeah! I've got an interview to do today after school. I look like hell, and she's going to take a picture. Oh goody... I'm not good at answering questions in interviews. I get really nervous talking to people about that sort of thing. I'm afraid I'll say something stupid, and then have it put in the paper. And over the phone, the woman seemed very intimidating to me - very professional, and very good at what she does. I don't know what I'd do if I made a fool of myself. I guess I'll know in an hour or so. I wonder how long it'll take...
I'm trying to read the Dune series, as blue suggested (AH! I forgot his name!). It's confusing. And at the same time, I'm trying to read the Sherlock mysteries and East of Eden by Steinbeck. That's not a book I'd read if I was just browsing a store, but the idea of such an evil lady got my attention. I started to get into it .. and then I left it in some class or another. Smart, ain't I? I'll find it tommorrow, I guess.
It's starting to get busy. I've got a band thing all day next Tuesday, and orthodontist appointment to reschedule. My granma's here, so that's a mess. My play is being performed on the 17, 18, 19, and 20th of March. Homework's starting to seriously pack on again. I HATE advanced algebra. Mr. Curtis gives us too much homework. In April, the Spanish twip comes up. And in may .. oh my, May's going to be crazy. Band concert and Bismarck Band Day, my birthday (yay!), and .. lots of other stuff. Okay, it doesn't sound like much now. I'm confused. I thought there was more...
... Okay, yeah, moving on...
Math is awful. I have absolutely no problems with logarithms. They're easy. I can do them. I do, however, have a real problem graphing them. It just takes too much time! I don't have that kind of time! So guess what? It doesn't get done and I get in trouble. Bloody hell on a stick! My dad can't even help anymore. ... Wait, that's not surprising...
Crap! I forgot that I left my CD in the Teen Center! Yep, I left my 3 Doors Down CD in the CD drive of a computer at the teen center. I'll have to go there tomorrow and get it. Heh .. I ain't very smart, am I?
Or not. The computer didn't get fixed, so I'm going to be in trouble in math tomorrow because I can't get any help. Stupid logarithm graphs. I HATE GRAPHING! AHHH!!!!!
Anyway, I think I've written enough ... Yeah, definitely enough. nd I'm starting to get tired. AND the good ol' 9:00 TV is starting to come on. So ... yeah. That's all, folks!
I'm not actually stopping there. Ooooooooh no. We've got a long way to go.
March 1, 2005
FIRE ZE MISSILES!
... But I am le tired...
Fine, take a nap. ZEN FIRE ZE MISSILES!!!
Yeah, I've lost it. I'm tired and a bit random and out of it at the same time. I've got the "end of the world" thing stuck in my head for some odd reason. I'm so messed up.
And Australia's still like, "WTF, mates?"
They should be, with me around. Hehe. I'd be scared and confused, too. Boredom's really getting to me. I can't think of much to journal...
Sarah was on CCAM Idol today. She did really good, although she didn't quite hit the low notes. There was another couple of girls singing a duet, and they did good, too. Tomorrow should be hilarious. It's going to be Lazer and Jennifer (AKA Shiori). They're both a bit .. off. Anyway, the whole thing is pretty entertaining. I wonder what the prize is...
I think that the interview went alright yesterday. My picture wasn't all that great, but it's okay. The woman wasn't nearly as intimidating as I'd imagined. She didn't try to seem too professional, and mostly we just talked .. while she took notes on the conversation. Overall, I think it went well.
A little weird - that math student teacher person thing - whatever he is - called Mr. Curtis...anyway, he said something about a playwriting course to be at lunch. That's just great. I write for fun. I don't think I could force myself to write something like a play for a class.
Science is boring. It's way too simple. I'm done with the entire paper, and they're still on the first side! Bloody freshman anyway .. they think they rule the school. They don't even know how to .. well .. how to LEARN! Friggin retards..
Journalism is awful. Mrs. Scheeler's voice alone really bugs me, and we waste time on the most annoying things. The class is so dull. I'm not interested in ANYTHING that we do in this class. I should have just taken Driver's Ed. I really need to be able to practice driving, and I don't want to have to ask my parents to teach me. Yeah, journalism SUCKS!!!!!
Getting late now. Gotta go.
And actually, it is getting kind of late. I'll have to put up the last three entries tomorrow. Ciao folks!
THE MEG