hope this jogs ur memory a lil
"to whom it may concern:
"it started when we were younger, & you were mine...my boo." did you get that?
i once had this person, i apologize, a man. hes the 1 man that i shouldve ended up with, the 1 that everybody shouldve known & the 1 that i shouldve treated like a king. but it didnt happen like that, i fucked up. he did everything for me, & i just acted as if nothing was really being done. at times, yes i showed my love...but i see it clearly now, i was grimey. i shouldve been showing my love 24/7, instead i was oblivious to the true love right in front of my face. matta fact, i cant believe my heart didnt see it, right fucking there in front of me. his heart was prepared to go through everything with me, & he protected me. times that i shouldnt of even had the privilege to have him there, he was there helping me. i never deserved a thing, but i got it all. i got everything. even the bad was good at times, because at least in the end i was lucky enough to still have him right there next to me when i turned to look. he would just be staring at me like he wanted to say the meanest things he could possibly say to me, but the words, they never were heard. i read it all in his eyes. but soon after the anger, i felt embrace. i would feel his soul wrapped around me. my whole body would tingle, & my chest would feel so warm. as you can tell, his touches were powerful. i hate myself though. i took all that, all the wonderful things i had & i just pushed it away. i made it disappear, nobody else but me. i was lost. i really was, because i pushed it away thinking that i was going to gain everything that i had ever wanted from somebody else.....but it never happened. if i wasnt only thinking of myself, that man, the 1 man that i shouldve ended up with, the 1 that everybody shouldve known & the 1 that i shoudlve treating like a king.......i woulda had that man, & i wouldve never let my grip go. never. to you, im sorry. those words have been said to you so much over these months, but ive truly meant it every time. i promise. everything, im sorry. its so crazy that its possible to love more than 1 at the same time, but i never suggest it. youll hurt 1, no matter what. guess what? its always the one that doesnt deserve it. my boo, i loved you then & i love you now. nothing will ever change that, & i pray that we continue to be friends. we hate, but only its because we love so much.......i guess. im here for you, & even if we dont end up together again that will never change. also, my feelings will stay the same. promise that on my life. i love you, thank you & i miss you.
dont think you know who this is for...none of you. only that person shall know....................& he knows.
Current Mood: indescribable"
"it started when we were younger, & you were mine...my boo." did you get that?
i once had this person, i apologize, a man. hes the 1 man that i shouldve ended up with, the 1 that everybody shouldve known & the 1 that i shouldve treated like a king. but it didnt happen like that, i fucked up. he did everything for me, & i just acted as if nothing was really being done. at times, yes i showed my love...but i see it clearly now, i was grimey. i shouldve been showing my love 24/7, instead i was oblivious to the true love right in front of my face. matta fact, i cant believe my heart didnt see it, right fucking there in front of me. his heart was prepared to go through everything with me, & he protected me. times that i shouldnt of even had the privilege to have him there, he was there helping me. i never deserved a thing, but i got it all. i got everything. even the bad was good at times, because at least in the end i was lucky enough to still have him right there next to me when i turned to look. he would just be staring at me like he wanted to say the meanest things he could possibly say to me, but the words, they never were heard. i read it all in his eyes. but soon after the anger, i felt embrace. i would feel his soul wrapped around me. my whole body would tingle, & my chest would feel so warm. as you can tell, his touches were powerful. i hate myself though. i took all that, all the wonderful things i had & i just pushed it away. i made it disappear, nobody else but me. i was lost. i really was, because i pushed it away thinking that i was going to gain everything that i had ever wanted from somebody else.....but it never happened. if i wasnt only thinking of myself, that man, the 1 man that i shouldve ended up with, the 1 that everybody shouldve known & the 1 that i shoudlve treating like a king.......i woulda had that man, & i wouldve never let my grip go. never. to you, im sorry. those words have been said to you so much over these months, but ive truly meant it every time. i promise. everything, im sorry. its so crazy that its possible to love more than 1 at the same time, but i never suggest it. youll hurt 1, no matter what. guess what? its always the one that doesnt deserve it. my boo, i loved you then & i love you now. nothing will ever change that, & i pray that we continue to be friends. we hate, but only its because we love so much.......i guess. im here for you, & even if we dont end up together again that will never change. also, my feelings will stay the same. promise that on my life. i love you, thank you & i miss you.
dont think you know who this is for...none of you. only that person shall know....................& he knows.
Current Mood: indescribable"