my life

[_sensei_]

first off...nobody even acts like they care about me n e more....shit...nobody will prolly care to read this shit at all...but most importantly my family don't care bout me no more..whats there to live for huh? to take up space and eat ppls food and sleep in a bed i didn't buy in a house thats not mine. my friends dont even try to hold me back they just disrespect at times...but its my family.... my family!...the other day i found out that for years i wasn't on my moms insurance becuz she wanted t save money..thats real motherly. and it really sucks because the other day i got into an accidnet and i really am hurtin and i wanted to get checked out and she reuses to even lift a finger to help me...she didn't even spit on me...she pissed on me...she rather listen to her fuckin inch high boyfriend that doesn't kno shit about shit and is noseier than a muthafucker. and now the final straw i just got fucked outta 15 g's. so since i don't live her according the the insurance i am leaving in about 2 monthes...fuck family, fuck skool, and fuck friends.....speaking of friends....kristen hi how r u doing...u were my best friend and lover but its obvious u don't feel the same regardless of w/e the fuck u might say i don't care u were never there for me and u never care enough to work it out...and as days pass i read ur live journal and u just keep on wit ur wilky dis and dat and the lucky number while u lay on ur stomach....r u sure its not the seven on ur back cuz it damn sure does sound like it... if u cared for me like u claim u did u would have told me the truth but no u always wanted him and u always lied bout him and u always ran back to him well...i'm over u now and w/e u n him did while we were together its fine cuz i was a duck.....glad the sex was amazing...lay on ur stomach ma....just like that....thats y ur head always got smacked in the pavment. i never did shit on purpose to hurt u but u did it to me and if u claim u didn't then u were just somethings i would really not prefer to say...i just can't believe u when all the evidence is on live journal and u said it urself live is for how u feel and its not for n e body else....u prolly gonna wanna take me off and not wanna talk to me no more...w/e i can't b hurt no more unless u did it in my face...i hate my life and i do wanna die and i would regret it either...what did i ever do to any of u... ppl just think that the nice guys can get walked on...i asked for the truth all the time and i get a half assed answer like ...i don't have to answer that...well don't talk to me if u can't tell me the truth.i dont lie in ur face.i would of took a million bullets for u and suffered the most horrade of tortures just to keep u and u would give n e thing to have wilky...even tho he had melrose sayin u was a ho and his lil bitch thanks to kamar and jamel for the info....i wouldn't of did u like that i hope u happy wit ur decision hit me up if u want but if u don't i understand....cuz that means that shit is tru and u can go fuck ur self and who ever u chose..

-p.s.- fuck family and fuck friends i don't need n e one or want n e one n e more