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[drowning_life]

argh. i can't be normal. as in.. sane.
how many sane people do you know are happy and then go carve someones name into their arm?
yeah. not many.
but it looks so kool. it's not big.. it's just.. *sigh* beautiful.
it's like a drug.
no-one understands that.
it's not like "oh, i might stop today" you have to really want to stop.

jodie: do u want to stop cutting urself?
me: yeah.. well sortof.. idk :-( i want to stop for nick
jodie: do u have will power to stop?
me: no

give me will power. i want to stop for you