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He gave me the christmas present.
He actually gave me the present.
How could he? I adore it! I love it! I hate it! I depise it!
I wish I could throw it away, but yet I'm wearing it.
Yeah so Jacob gave me the present he bought me. Even though we aren't going out anymore. That was nice, but it made me cry.
Wanna know what it was? Yeah it was the most beautiful sterling silver bracelet I've ever seen in my life. It is sooooo nice and has a heart and in the heart it is engraved. You know what it says in the heart?!? Just guess!!!!..........Jacob & Jade........yay! What am I suppose to do with it?
I don't know. I just wanna go back out with him. Nobody understands. They want me to be like "Fine! You jerk!" and then go and flirt and make-out with everybody in sight......NO! I'm not that girl. I don't wanna try and hide my true feelings. Because you will always feel hurt if you do. Trust me......I know. I tried it before. And I don't want to feel that way about Jacob. Never knowing what could have been if I would have just said what was on my mind. I don't wanna be fake....I just want him back.
I cried after I got it today. Everytime I would look down on my wrist or in my hand. I would see it. I was wearing it because I longed for it to be true and perefect and wonderful like before. I was clutching it in my hands because I wanted to grasp the fact that even though I have the memories, I doubt I will ever have him again. I know it's only freshman year and blah blah. But I liked him soo much. When I fall for someone.....I fall hard. Some of you know that. I never get over the people.
I want people to care. I want people to hug me. I want people to tell me everything will be ok. I want things to be great. I want to go dancing in the rain with someone.........but there's only like one person that could say it make it better.
PS-Grant and Alex......I'm SOOOOOO SOOOO SOOOO SOOOO sorry about your stuff. That is horrible. We got a bunch of stuff stolen from our garage when we lived in coyote lakes. Yah...a lot of stuff.....but that is terrible. I don't know what to say. BEcause I know that nothing will make it better. There is only one thing that would make it better and it's to get ur stuff back. I know the feeling...as stated aboved. So agian.....sooooooo sorry about your stuff.
He actually gave me the present.
How could he? I adore it! I love it! I hate it! I depise it!
I wish I could throw it away, but yet I'm wearing it.
Yeah so Jacob gave me the present he bought me. Even though we aren't going out anymore. That was nice, but it made me cry.
Wanna know what it was? Yeah it was the most beautiful sterling silver bracelet I've ever seen in my life. It is sooooo nice and has a heart and in the heart it is engraved. You know what it says in the heart?!? Just guess!!!!..........Jacob & Jade........yay! What am I suppose to do with it?
I don't know. I just wanna go back out with him. Nobody understands. They want me to be like "Fine! You jerk!" and then go and flirt and make-out with everybody in sight......NO! I'm not that girl. I don't wanna try and hide my true feelings. Because you will always feel hurt if you do. Trust me......I know. I tried it before. And I don't want to feel that way about Jacob. Never knowing what could have been if I would have just said what was on my mind. I don't wanna be fake....I just want him back.
I cried after I got it today. Everytime I would look down on my wrist or in my hand. I would see it. I was wearing it because I longed for it to be true and perefect and wonderful like before. I was clutching it in my hands because I wanted to grasp the fact that even though I have the memories, I doubt I will ever have him again. I know it's only freshman year and blah blah. But I liked him soo much. When I fall for someone.....I fall hard. Some of you know that. I never get over the people.
I want people to care. I want people to hug me. I want people to tell me everything will be ok. I want things to be great. I want to go dancing in the rain with someone.........but there's only like one person that could say it make it better.
PS-Grant and Alex......I'm SOOOOOO SOOOO SOOOO SOOOO sorry about your stuff. That is horrible. We got a bunch of stuff stolen from our garage when we lived in coyote lakes. Yah...a lot of stuff.....but that is terrible. I don't know what to say. BEcause I know that nothing will make it better. There is only one thing that would make it better and it's to get ur stuff back. I know the feeling...as stated aboved. So agian.....sooooooo sorry about your stuff.