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all i want. is to be happy again.
and that can only happen. is if ur mine again.
thursday night justin m. told me that he liked me. alot.. idk what to do.. im not ready to move on. but from now on .. i*m at least gonna fake it... and pretend that my heart no longer belongs to you. and that i don't long to be in your arms, and i don't sleep just to hope that i might be able to see you the next day. and because.. no longer is my reality. better then my dreams. i miss you so much.. everything reminds me of him.. i don't know what to do..
and then this other person, that's from hall, told me he likes me alot.. :-/ god idk what to do.
i hate this. life is so unfair.
all i want is you. and i`m about ready to give up on something more then just another relationship w/ u.. but give up all together. and just leave this fucking place. and go somewhere. far away, where noone will find me. but i don't .. b/c as korny as it sounds. i love my mom, mikey, savanna, n sonya to much.. sonya & my mom have gone thru enough already w/ me being sick. i wouldn't want to hurt them anymore.. but i don't think anyone even fucking cares anymore besides them., if they even do. i need help. i need someone to talk to. someone i can trust. but i just need ..someone that i love.. and have loved for so long. the first guy i ever told that i love him. but im afraid. that i'll never get another chance. god why can't i just fucking tell him. and him love me too!
im done b4 i say something i'll regret.