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Do you ever get the feeling that boys are highly overrated? That they are so not worth all the fuckin trouble they put you through? So FUCK YOU Chad. Fuck you and Mikayla. FUCK EVERYTHING!
Yeah I should probably explain. So remember that in between place Chad and I were at. Not anymore. Last night, I went to the game with Raleigh (Ryan was playing. Plus things have been off between us. It kinda sucks because Raleigh is stuck in the middle of everything. But more on that later). Things were okay at the game. I saw Chad, we talked a little bit but he was busy with his friends.
After the game, Kyle was having a party. Nothing new. Standard Friday night events. Raleigh and I didn't feel like spending a whole Friday night at a STUPID party where everyone was going to be getting drunk. Once the game ended we went to Starbucks and hung out for about an hour before going to Kyle's. When I got there, Ryan tried to get Raleigh and I to leave. I couldn't figure out why but I finally slipped by him and went in search of Chad. I found him out back MAKING out with Mikayla who is supposedly supposed to be my "friend". I've known Mikayla since I was like 3 and she KNEW how I felt about Chad.
So know I feel STUPID about everything. Maybe Chad did like me or maybe he was just flirting with me to flirt. All I know is that I really liked him. Maybe I'm overreacting since Chad and I were never technically going out. I'm so mad at him and Mikayla. I mean I know I've complained about my friends on here but they're still my friends! I mean WHAT THE HELL was she thinking??! Maybe she was looking to get back at me. Maybe she really liked him.
The part that makes me most angry is that I started crying! OVER CHAD! I'm not an emotional person but I started to cry. Plus I felt horrible knowing that Ryan had warned me about Chad but I had IGNORED him. I wanted to leave fast so Ryan wouldn't see me. Of course with the LUCK I was having that night do you think that happened? NO! Ryan and Raleigh were standing at the front door. It turns out Ryan knew about Mikayla and Chad the whole time but didn't want to hurt me (okay he didn't think I would believe him). Yes he KNEW about Mikayla and Chad meaning it wasn't the first time.
Mikayla had sat there and listened to me go on and on about CHAD, yet she never said anything. Chad KNEW he and Mikayla had a thing yet he had no problems FLIRTING with ME. I feel stupid and hurt. I screwed things up with Ryan over CHAD. We're okay now. Ryan and me. I feel better knowing that we're still friends but I did screw things for awhile. What if he hadn't forgiven me? I could've LOST my long time best friend over some GUY. I can't believe how stupid I was. STUPID. *Sigh*
Has anybody ever felt as stupid as I do right now? Doing something stupid over a boy just to find out that they don't like you or whatever.
Yeah I should probably explain. So remember that in between place Chad and I were at. Not anymore. Last night, I went to the game with Raleigh (Ryan was playing. Plus things have been off between us. It kinda sucks because Raleigh is stuck in the middle of everything. But more on that later). Things were okay at the game. I saw Chad, we talked a little bit but he was busy with his friends.
After the game, Kyle was having a party. Nothing new. Standard Friday night events. Raleigh and I didn't feel like spending a whole Friday night at a STUPID party where everyone was going to be getting drunk. Once the game ended we went to Starbucks and hung out for about an hour before going to Kyle's. When I got there, Ryan tried to get Raleigh and I to leave. I couldn't figure out why but I finally slipped by him and went in search of Chad. I found him out back MAKING out with Mikayla who is supposedly supposed to be my "friend". I've known Mikayla since I was like 3 and she KNEW how I felt about Chad.
So know I feel STUPID about everything. Maybe Chad did like me or maybe he was just flirting with me to flirt. All I know is that I really liked him. Maybe I'm overreacting since Chad and I were never technically going out. I'm so mad at him and Mikayla. I mean I know I've complained about my friends on here but they're still my friends! I mean WHAT THE HELL was she thinking??! Maybe she was looking to get back at me. Maybe she really liked him.
The part that makes me most angry is that I started crying! OVER CHAD! I'm not an emotional person but I started to cry. Plus I felt horrible knowing that Ryan had warned me about Chad but I had IGNORED him. I wanted to leave fast so Ryan wouldn't see me. Of course with the LUCK I was having that night do you think that happened? NO! Ryan and Raleigh were standing at the front door. It turns out Ryan knew about Mikayla and Chad the whole time but didn't want to hurt me (okay he didn't think I would believe him). Yes he KNEW about Mikayla and Chad meaning it wasn't the first time.
Mikayla had sat there and listened to me go on and on about CHAD, yet she never said anything. Chad KNEW he and Mikayla had a thing yet he had no problems FLIRTING with ME. I feel stupid and hurt. I screwed things up with Ryan over CHAD. We're okay now. Ryan and me. I feel better knowing that we're still friends but I did screw things for awhile. What if he hadn't forgiven me? I could've LOST my long time best friend over some GUY. I can't believe how stupid I was. STUPID. *Sigh*
Has anybody ever felt as stupid as I do right now? Doing something stupid over a boy just to find out that they don't like you or whatever.