It's not supposed to be like this....

[_screaming4you_]

I feel like everything is starting to fall apart. School is horrible. Don't get it wrong, I have super easy classes, it's the people.... all of them. I regret to the most not graduating in December. I just can't wait to get out of there. I'm just not feel all that great lately. I don't know what it is. I keep letting people down. One person in particualr. The only one that really matters. It makes me sick to look back at everything that I've screwed up. He makes me the happiest I've ever been, but I feel like I don't do him justice. I love him with all my heart and soul. I've never felt like this about anyone. And that's what makes it hurt so much when I screw things up. I know that no one is perfect, but I just want to be better. So much better.

After seven months, I still get butterflies when we kiss.
I love that boy.<3