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i'm sick of dreaming.
i don't dream when i sleep.
...most of the time.
i think i should start sleeping more.
maybe i'd feel better if i didn't have the time to think about what i'm missing out on by being so retarded.
& i'm sick of wishing for things i'll never have.
wishes don't come true and there's no point.
but that's what i spend most of my time doing.
i wish i could give up.
but yeah.
that's just another stupid wish.
i want to delete this journal.
there's so much stupidness in here.
you know i'm not going to.
i just want to.
but i could never do that.
i hope tomorrow is better than today.
but it won't be...i know it won't.
thanks so much for ruining everything.
i don't dream when i sleep.
...most of the time.
i think i should start sleeping more.
maybe i'd feel better if i didn't have the time to think about what i'm missing out on by being so retarded.
& i'm sick of wishing for things i'll never have.
wishes don't come true and there's no point.
but that's what i spend most of my time doing.
i wish i could give up.
but yeah.
that's just another stupid wish.
i want to delete this journal.
there's so much stupidness in here.
you know i'm not going to.
i just want to.
but i could never do that.
i hope tomorrow is better than today.
but it won't be...i know it won't.
thanks so much for ruining everything.