oh no

[_scenestealer]

ok. i know. but i promise i'm really ok.
does i promise make me look sad.
gimmie. i have to write
two 600 word essays it would be easy
if i didn't have to write it in four hours
this week is workshop week.
9am to 5pm
12am lunch
i missed my lunch. i'm behind.
just till today i spelt behind behide.
i feel stupid. drink drink drink white wine
all over my jacket. smoking inside breaks
the contract. talking about the past.
isay when did the future switch from being
a promise to being a threat. its from some
book i read. so true. i have no future. i plan
on what i should become. like i can help it
people say they don't regret anything.
i do. i regret everything. i think without
the mistakes i made i still could've become
who i am. maybe not exactly but close.

i wanna be slience. i need to stop being a baby.
victim. i should start being the
attacker. i attack while you're awake.

if only i can tell you the truth about something
only if you weren't so bored and thinking of something else
it would be so easy.

i want to go to the philppines but i don't want to go back.
that's why im not going to use this account anymore.
but i want to have somthing to look back to someday
so i'll leave it open.its not like anyone really reads it either