wow
wow its been a long time...
umm first of all i look back on everything i wrote before this and realize i really did need people that would have a positive effect on me. and someone that did were ...Kaela if i didn't have you this whole time i don't know where i'd be. my last entry was i think a little bit after things went down hill. this year basically has to be one of the shittiest ever.. but i think that its good that i got through all these things.. i think its made me a lot stronger than i used to be.
im not going to talk about my ex-friends because theres no point really .. i will say that i only miss the feeling of having a group of friends that i can count on.but thats ok im at a new school i have new friends and im going to try to make this year the best it can be.
the only thing that i reallly want to talk about is my grandma. she died in august but i still dont think the grief has really caught up to me yet.. i mean yeah i cried the most ive ever cried before. but when i went to new york id be walking around and i just forget why i was there like i was waiting for her to come around the corner or something it was just too wierd....i still get blindsided by it when i think about. i just felt i have to document it sooner or later. all i know is i love her and i wish i had more time with her
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umm first of all i look back on everything i wrote before this and realize i really did need people that would have a positive effect on me. and someone that did were ...Kaela if i didn't have you this whole time i don't know where i'd be. my last entry was i think a little bit after things went down hill. this year basically has to be one of the shittiest ever.. but i think that its good that i got through all these things.. i think its made me a lot stronger than i used to be.
im not going to talk about my ex-friends because theres no point really .. i will say that i only miss the feeling of having a group of friends that i can count on.but thats ok im at a new school i have new friends and im going to try to make this year the best it can be.
the only thing that i reallly want to talk about is my grandma. she died in august but i still dont think the grief has really caught up to me yet.. i mean yeah i cried the most ive ever cried before. but when i went to new york id be walking around and i just forget why i was there like i was waiting for her to come around the corner or something it was just too wierd....i still get blindsided by it when i think about. i just felt i have to document it sooner or later. all i know is i love her and i wish i had more time with her
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