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well i can honestly say that this has been my worst visitation yet =[
well first... suprise surprise! he takes us to a fucking counselor i told the counselor that i wasnt going to participate so i didnt... i was being really bitchy but icant help it... ive been to like 10 diff couselors and one more isnt going to help.. itl just make things worse well after that he took us to zippys.. i wasnt hungry i didnt eat... then he was saying all this shit to me like u need to try more and not be disrespectful and i was gettin so pissed at him i was practically yelling and everyone was staring at me and he just kept saying all these lies and shit like 'i do this because i love you' he just makes me so mad and then my anger turns into sorrow... and i feel like i have no control over myself and i just hhurt so much inside... the anger fear sorrow... then i inflict physical pain on myself to numb the emotions...
oh and want to kno the one question the counselor did ask me?
"are you suicidal?"
*sigh*
i hate lying...
well first... suprise surprise! he takes us to a fucking counselor i told the counselor that i wasnt going to participate so i didnt... i was being really bitchy but icant help it... ive been to like 10 diff couselors and one more isnt going to help.. itl just make things worse well after that he took us to zippys.. i wasnt hungry i didnt eat... then he was saying all this shit to me like u need to try more and not be disrespectful and i was gettin so pissed at him i was practically yelling and everyone was staring at me and he just kept saying all these lies and shit like 'i do this because i love you' he just makes me so mad and then my anger turns into sorrow... and i feel like i have no control over myself and i just hhurt so much inside... the anger fear sorrow... then i inflict physical pain on myself to numb the emotions...
oh and want to kno the one question the counselor did ask me?
"are you suicidal?"
*sigh*
i hate lying...