Back in the USA
hmm so I'm back from canada.. and loving it.. as much as I loved canada before. I realized it isnt as much fun as when my cousins christina and melinda arent there. We didnt do as much as we had in the past either.. so it sucked. oh well at least I had a great vacation at the cape right!? So I got home today and I wanted to see the village w/ melinda. but comes to find out she was working and I really cant watch scary movies w/ anyone else.. I dont seem to enjoy them as much. or get scared by them. anyways. so instead I went out w/ my cousin christina and went to the eastfield mall got some flip flops. and then went and seen harold and kumar somthing somthing somthing. I dont know what it was. but it was wicked funny. I recomend it. then we went to freindly's. Ive also concluded tonite that I am horribly out of shape. it is rediculous. I really should start working out. I actually tried when I got home but surprizingly enough I couldnt do 50 sit ups. so I was disscouraged and stopped. eh maybe I will try to run tomarrow. haha.. me run. I guess I'll give it a shot. anyways. so me and tara, were fighting again. for reasons I really dont understand. but oh well.. all I remember is that she is being very ignorant towards our freindship. and truthfully doesnt understand the meaning of freindship. like I do care about this situation and I dont at the same time. if she really is that stubborn about us not being freinds, than there is nothing I can do about it. I will go to college and move on. But I know there will be those times when I will talk to someone on the phone or online.. or someone will say somthing stupid that I know chantal or anyone wouldnt appreciate as much as if I would tell tara. because, no matter how close me and chan are. or me and anyone are, tara was my best freind end of freshman year to the end of junior year, and nothing will change that, or make me forget that. ok new subject. so I said some stupid shit the other nite when I was drunk before I went to canada that I regret saying.. honestly. it now makes things so complicated and I hate it. and I dont want anything to change, not now .. not bc of this ya know/ but obviously if it does... it does and I know why it did// and that would be, because of me. but yea oh well. hmm college is coming up I'm kinda excited.. and very nervous.. how is everything in my life going to work out? will I do good at college? oh peter.. dont forget if I make deans list you owe me. lol ya like that will happen// haha. anyways. but oh a lighter note I am back in america.... wooohhhooooo/ the end