Post to Jay Q
I am sorry you got into the middle of all this, and I'm sory I gave you my number that day. I really didliek you, bc if I said i didnt, that would be a lie. I guess after you told me things between us were over, and you were getting back w/ your ex I kinda thought about how I thought I was getting exactly whatI wanted, a great guy, that liked me for me, that accepted my freind, and I could always have fun w/. and then it all went away. I guess since that day i always had that in my mind, and thinking you were gonna hurt me like you did the first time. I guess like when youdid hurt me the first time it was a good wake up call to tell myself how attached I got to you, when I dont get attached to guys, I think bc when we got back together, we picked up from where we left off, and it scared me, that you have the ability to hurt me and its this early, I dont like opening up to people, but I did to you, and I think that is why you can hurt me, bc when I open up to people, I let them into my world, my heart, and they then have the ability to break it. so I stopped. I stopped telling you things, and I started to make you wonder.when you started to wonder you stated talking to my freinds, and bc I didnt tell anything to my freinds of what I was thinkging inside my head, you were all investingating me.I dont know what happened then. I think then I got mad, and started to think of everything the matter w/ you and that was wrong. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. I really dont know what I'm doign w/ my life right now. and I'm sorry I have had to include you in it .. I'm sorry for us.