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so this is when im going to explain everything.
i was at the hospital. my mom seemed to be doing better. she doesnt remember anything from being, so the scary stuff i saw, is not in her memory at all. my mom has cancer in her brain.. she had an MRI today, so we will know everything about that tomorrow.
its weird, she was at carols house (her best friend, my second mom, and carol said it was kinda like she knew something was coming. carol told me that my mom said that she was worried about me. she said she didnt want me to have any regrets about our realationship, and that she wants to fix things. she asked carol to promise to take care of us and to promise she would be that at my wedding.
she said shes not giving up with out a fight, because she has three children she loves to death.
this makes everything seem so unimportant. my weight, my hair, everything i have been stressing over.
at this point in my life, this is where i change. i really thought not having my liscence and not having a better job and everything was what was keeping me feeling younger then i am. i realize its my outlook and my attitude toward life and how i handle them. i know i have been acting immature. this whole thing made me pissed off and basically i didnt want to do anything. i know i have to take care of myself. i need to step up and take care of my house and my family. i know i wanted to party and be a crazy teen and just have fun, but there are more important things, like God and my family. im not saying i shouldnt be allowed to have fun, just not the kind of fun ive been leaning towards. those who are close know what i mean. no more using the excuse " oh im just (insert age here) ill learn later, ill grow up later" i used that excuse with mom, that id fix my relationship with her later. well guess what, there might not be another later. i need to learn now. i need to realize my lessons now...not look at them and say "Oh well" and then put it off.
let me tell u, all of this is easier said then done... but at this point, my relationship with mom and God and family is number one, no questions asked.
i love her so much.
i know i may seem unapproachable (sp) guys .. but ya know, feel free to call. its always helps to hear from a friend. say a prayre for my mom.
love always
~Sarah
i was at the hospital. my mom seemed to be doing better. she doesnt remember anything from being, so the scary stuff i saw, is not in her memory at all. my mom has cancer in her brain.. she had an MRI today, so we will know everything about that tomorrow.
its weird, she was at carols house (her best friend, my second mom, and carol said it was kinda like she knew something was coming. carol told me that my mom said that she was worried about me. she said she didnt want me to have any regrets about our realationship, and that she wants to fix things. she asked carol to promise to take care of us and to promise she would be that at my wedding.
she said shes not giving up with out a fight, because she has three children she loves to death.
this makes everything seem so unimportant. my weight, my hair, everything i have been stressing over.
at this point in my life, this is where i change. i really thought not having my liscence and not having a better job and everything was what was keeping me feeling younger then i am. i realize its my outlook and my attitude toward life and how i handle them. i know i have been acting immature. this whole thing made me pissed off and basically i didnt want to do anything. i know i have to take care of myself. i need to step up and take care of my house and my family. i know i wanted to party and be a crazy teen and just have fun, but there are more important things, like God and my family. im not saying i shouldnt be allowed to have fun, just not the kind of fun ive been leaning towards. those who are close know what i mean. no more using the excuse " oh im just (insert age here) ill learn later, ill grow up later" i used that excuse with mom, that id fix my relationship with her later. well guess what, there might not be another later. i need to learn now. i need to realize my lessons now...not look at them and say "Oh well" and then put it off.
let me tell u, all of this is easier said then done... but at this point, my relationship with mom and God and family is number one, no questions asked.
i love her so much.
i know i may seem unapproachable (sp) guys .. but ya know, feel free to call. its always helps to hear from a friend. say a prayre for my mom.
love always
~Sarah