Self-Discovery
Everyone goes through the stage of their life where they have no idea who they are. It's true, believe me. If you don't believe that everyone goes through this stage, then you should just shoot yourself. No one is born knowing who they are. At least, that's what I believe.
Anyway, today in biology I actually fell asleep in class while we watching a video (which I never do, by the way) and after I woke up, I was feeling a bit dazed and a bit confused. My teacher walked up to me and laughed. He said "looks like you have been drooling." He was right, I had drooled all over the table. Gross, I know. Get over it. I looked at the drool and thought "that is absolutely disgusting, but I don't fucking care." I didn't care who saw that I had drooled all over the table. And I always have cared what people thought of me, for as long as I could remember. I asked to go to the bathroom, so I could think. (Yes, I think in the bathroom) Anyway, when I came back from the bathroom, I saw Lauren and Laura. I said hi and we talked for about 10 minutes. I was completely myself. I was in love with how honest to myself I could be. For the next few hours I was totally myself without knowing it. I wasn't trying to impress or make anyone like me. It was the most amazing feeling in the world.
I should start drooling more often. :)
Anyway, today in biology I actually fell asleep in class while we watching a video (which I never do, by the way) and after I woke up, I was feeling a bit dazed and a bit confused. My teacher walked up to me and laughed. He said "looks like you have been drooling." He was right, I had drooled all over the table. Gross, I know. Get over it. I looked at the drool and thought "that is absolutely disgusting, but I don't fucking care." I didn't care who saw that I had drooled all over the table. And I always have cared what people thought of me, for as long as I could remember. I asked to go to the bathroom, so I could think. (Yes, I think in the bathroom) Anyway, when I came back from the bathroom, I saw Lauren and Laura. I said hi and we talked for about 10 minutes. I was completely myself. I was in love with how honest to myself I could be. For the next few hours I was totally myself without knowing it. I wasn't trying to impress or make anyone like me. It was the most amazing feeling in the world.
I should start drooling more often. :)