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Today was much better because i felt a lot happier. I just feel like cleaning everything out, rearranging my room, and in a sense i want to start fresh. Hopefully that will happen this week/weekend. speaking of weekend, i sort of "reconnected" somewhat with an old friend . I'd have to say it was awesome. I'm so lost in all the old memories, i hate the thought of letting them go in a way- Moving on. So i was thinking about it, how when we are young, a lot of us try and plan our whole life and imagine this perfect fantasy life anyone would want. then i was thinking look at all the people divorced and who have kids with disabilities and all the people with lost jobs- all of those people never dreamed of those things happening. As much as i don't imagine myself getting divorced or having a kid with some problem-it happens, just like no one thought it would happen to them. If any of that made sense- I don't know, i guess i just always pictured the life i wanted and had somewhat no control over but i really have no idea what's going to happen, and i shouldn't be so sure things will turn out the way i want them to be.