Something to balance
I feel a bit better. I went and got a coffee people mocha mindfreeze (decaf) which is equivalent to a small sip of heaven. It costs 4 bucks a pop, so I only do it when I really need to treat myself. Which is like..once every 2 or 3 months. Otherwise I would have horrible guilt about it. But I dont. Not today anyways. Then I went to the dollar store and they didnt have any sleep masks, but they did have some other happy treats for me. Hair pretties and body scrub and candles and blue raspberry blow pops. And that was were my money from trents granma went. I forced myself to spend it on myself well not all of it, but half at least, and that is really hard for me. But I want to keep telling myself that I deserve it and its ok. :)