gift
due to recent events and much thinking... i have in short acquired a gift... and i wont waste this gift on myself... i will have to put it all toward the one i love... because... what else would i do with it? to do anything but this would be... unforgivable for me... i wouldnt be able to live with myself. i may have broke down crying before... but i guess i didnt break after all... this will work... i will make sure of it. my love for her is still just as strong and maybe i was drawing more strength from that then i initially thought... but... if i do this i dont know how many of my older feelings and other such things i can retain while draining it to keep myself under control... i dont think my love will die... i wonder just how much i can do... i will test it tomorrow... but... no more livejournal, i think this is the abosolute final post for this journal.