hello.
today i got my school pictures back. i look absolutely retarded. it looks like i have a lazy eye, apprantly i have a defect in the bone structure of my face. i'm always the last to know.
my mom told me there's plastic surgery that can fix it. and it's like, thanks mom, i guess it really is that bad.
i can't even look in the mirror -- i've never been this self-concious at any point in my life, it's ridiculous.
all these stupid selfish thoughts have been coming to mind all night, like, i wonder if people notice, i wonder if they talk about it, i wonder if it affects what they think of me. i wonder why no one's said anything about it to me.
and to top that off, for some reason i've been thinking about past relationships, what went wrong, what i could have done to save them, and now, if my face had anything to do with their ultimate demise.
like i said, this is ridiculous. it's not at all like me to worry about shit like this.
i'm pissed. maybe i'll be over this by tomorrow.
my mom told me there's plastic surgery that can fix it. and it's like, thanks mom, i guess it really is that bad.
i can't even look in the mirror -- i've never been this self-concious at any point in my life, it's ridiculous.
all these stupid selfish thoughts have been coming to mind all night, like, i wonder if people notice, i wonder if they talk about it, i wonder if it affects what they think of me. i wonder why no one's said anything about it to me.
and to top that off, for some reason i've been thinking about past relationships, what went wrong, what i could have done to save them, and now, if my face had anything to do with their ultimate demise.
like i said, this is ridiculous. it's not at all like me to worry about shit like this.
i'm pissed. maybe i'll be over this by tomorrow.