oh well whatever nevermind...
looking back on all the stuff that's happened.
it seems like i've always ended up in the same situations with people.
and as time goes on they all only get worse.
it's kind of weird that i never really realized this till now.
and now that i'm not close with anyone i can just kind of sit back and look on it.
i don't want to get close with anyone.
i probably should have changed or done/not done a lot of stuff a while ago.
and i can't do anything about that now.
so i guess i'm just fucked.
i really don't want to think that people are bad, just suck, and will fuck you over all the time.
but i really don't know anymore.
people probably see me like that too though.
i really don't care about anyone anymore though, or at least i don't want to.
there's no point.
i try to be good to people and it just does not work.
i dunno i try to be different, nicer.
i try changing all the time but i don't even know where to even start with that anymore, and i've found it doesn't work so.
i just hate being here (here meaning a lot of different places/situations i guess)
i don't want to feel the way i do anymore.
i don't know when my moods started to swing this bad from really high one minute to really low the next.
i really don't like who i am anymore, whoever that may be
i'd really rather be somewhere else.
maybe things wouldn't be this gay.
i probably wont want to get out of bed tomorrow.
why am i so fucking miserable?
today nathan got a hair cut.
it's so cute.
i love nathan.
i talked to jeff in psych, and we finished watching 'awakenings.'
it was sad but i liked it.
aca paul, and i walked around and watched bro rape hahaha.
people liked my hair i think.
i started prozac nation.