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2 entries in one day. yes i know im a loser, but this was on my mind.
have u ever noticed how a person says something and it triggers something in ur mind and u cant stop thinking about it? well today my sister was talking about stiches and concussions and it made me think about how i have had 2 concussions and no stiches. well then i started thinking about how i really dont know myself and thats why i am so insecure and have no confidence. i need to get to know myself again. i really have no idea who i am any more. well here goes.
i am 15 years old. i cant wait till im 16. i have braces. boo. i love someone so much that it hurts. i like animals. i wanted to be a vegetarian but then i realized that they would still kill the animals so why not eat them. i look at myself in windows as i pass by. i cant go anywhere with out even a little bit of eyeliner on. i like alot of different music, mostly rock, ska and screamo haha and alternative maybe? i have 2 dogs and 2 cats and a horse. my favorite color is black which isnt a color its a shade so really my favorite color is blue. i like to snowboard but i would like to get better. ive had many friends that i have lost because of bad descisions, fights and lack of attention and change of interests. im not a virgin. im a smoker that tried to quit but gave up way to quickly. christmas is my favorite holiday. not just because of the presents but because of the snow, the family time and the mood. i play volleyball, im an outside hitter. i would also like to get better at that. ive lived in the same place my who life and am scared to death to leave it because of many reasons but the main one is because of this one person who id do anything for. my second toe is longer than my first. i hate feet. and when people touch my bellybutton or mess up my eyebrows or there own. i slouch. i walk slow. i dont mind being alone. i like to shop on most occaisons. i sleep alot. and my best friends are caitlin and sissy. my favorite food is...alot of things i eat like a pig. i drink to much soda. i imagine things as movies. i am a hopeless romantic. ive messed up alot lately. i get bad grades but im smart, most of the time. i go to westbloomfield high school. i love my cell phone. its so pretty. my room is constantly messy. im more comfortable in it that way. i hate change but i am learning to deal with it. i get down on myself easy. i need more self confidence and people skills. i need to be more optimistic. i just need to learn to be comfortable in my own skin and stop wishing that i was someone else. because wishes never really do come true. you have to make things happen for yourself. thats me.
okay. so today. after my 1st lj entry haha. i took a shower. relaced my shoes and then went to the mall with my sister and rachel. at first i felt like i was gonna pass out but then i bought things and i felt better lol. we ate at coney and then got auntie anns pretzels which are the best pretzels in the world. then went to kroger and now im here about to pass out from the paint smell because my parents just painted the basement. same color. ewe. but im thinkin im gonna go upstairs now. byee
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have u ever noticed how a person says something and it triggers something in ur mind and u cant stop thinking about it? well today my sister was talking about stiches and concussions and it made me think about how i have had 2 concussions and no stiches. well then i started thinking about how i really dont know myself and thats why i am so insecure and have no confidence. i need to get to know myself again. i really have no idea who i am any more. well here goes.
i am 15 years old. i cant wait till im 16. i have braces. boo. i love someone so much that it hurts. i like animals. i wanted to be a vegetarian but then i realized that they would still kill the animals so why not eat them. i look at myself in windows as i pass by. i cant go anywhere with out even a little bit of eyeliner on. i like alot of different music, mostly rock, ska and screamo haha and alternative maybe? i have 2 dogs and 2 cats and a horse. my favorite color is black which isnt a color its a shade so really my favorite color is blue. i like to snowboard but i would like to get better. ive had many friends that i have lost because of bad descisions, fights and lack of attention and change of interests. im not a virgin. im a smoker that tried to quit but gave up way to quickly. christmas is my favorite holiday. not just because of the presents but because of the snow, the family time and the mood. i play volleyball, im an outside hitter. i would also like to get better at that. ive lived in the same place my who life and am scared to death to leave it because of many reasons but the main one is because of this one person who id do anything for. my second toe is longer than my first. i hate feet. and when people touch my bellybutton or mess up my eyebrows or there own. i slouch. i walk slow. i dont mind being alone. i like to shop on most occaisons. i sleep alot. and my best friends are caitlin and sissy. my favorite food is...alot of things i eat like a pig. i drink to much soda. i imagine things as movies. i am a hopeless romantic. ive messed up alot lately. i get bad grades but im smart, most of the time. i go to westbloomfield high school. i love my cell phone. its so pretty. my room is constantly messy. im more comfortable in it that way. i hate change but i am learning to deal with it. i get down on myself easy. i need more self confidence and people skills. i need to be more optimistic. i just need to learn to be comfortable in my own skin and stop wishing that i was someone else. because wishes never really do come true. you have to make things happen for yourself. thats me.
okay. so today. after my 1st lj entry haha. i took a shower. relaced my shoes and then went to the mall with my sister and rachel. at first i felt like i was gonna pass out but then i bought things and i felt better lol. we ate at coney and then got auntie anns pretzels which are the best pretzels in the world. then went to kroger and now im here about to pass out from the paint smell because my parents just painted the basement. same color. ewe. but im thinkin im gonna go upstairs now. byee
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