lab at 5
I've been so stressed out lately, the lack of sleep isnt helping either. Atleast i got 14 hours of it last night to help regain a bit of my sanity. I've got so many things to finish this week. This is the last few days of 3DF. Yesterday I got a group together and hit up Millenia mall for a while. We were there to do some gestural drawing of people in motion, or just doing human things. It's kind of funny how most of the girls there wont look at anyone or anything. they just continue on their path with their nose up in the air. You can just feel them radiating conceededness. You really dont notice it much till you actually examine their body language. The flamboyant guys there were about the same. Looking around, I even noticed old perverts sitting alone on benches watching the girls go by or looking up their skirts from the bottom floor. It was pretty fucked up. I continued about my drawing and observing till I found a new appreciation for the female body. so complex yet so simple and all at the same time so good.
I was letting the others critic my artwork when one girl came up and almost walked into me, which was weird i thought. I said hi as she walked by, she was looking at me hard and smiled then said hi back real shy looking. Really, really hot girl shy of talking to a person like me? She walked into some shoe store near where we were sitting. she walked in and was obviously looking at me through the windows. a million things were going through my head. mostly, "what should i say when i walk up to her?". Nothing came to me. She walked out of that store then went into the Hollister right next to it. she glanced at me a few times before she walked in. i was trying not to look back heh. a few minutes had passed. I was still trying to think of something to say and also "what about lina?". The ever crushing and irrelevant thought that is. But it kind of helps because i think i know what she or anyone else in my situation would do. Without knowing what to say or anymore hesitation I went towards the store anyway in hopes of finding her. I'll just make up what im going to say as i go. Walked around the store twice. she was gone. Had probably walked out just as i was going in the other way. Well, thats the price i pay for hesitation. I dont think i really would have wanted a relationship with her. I think this is all just more of me building self confidence. But just getting a few looks helps me out. Also keeps my mind off other troubling things in my life.
After that venture in the mall, we all got some well deserved relaxation and swimming in the rain. Even though it was cold as hell, that was the furthest thing in my mind.
Well, I need to finish my Photoshop projects which are due today and also work on completing the last part of my robot in maya. Need to finish up incompleted works in my sketchpad as well. so many things. not enough time to do it all. I need a clear mind to do it. God help me, I need you more than ever.
my rest last night was dream filled..
I was letting the others critic my artwork when one girl came up and almost walked into me, which was weird i thought. I said hi as she walked by, she was looking at me hard and smiled then said hi back real shy looking. Really, really hot girl shy of talking to a person like me? She walked into some shoe store near where we were sitting. she walked in and was obviously looking at me through the windows. a million things were going through my head. mostly, "what should i say when i walk up to her?". Nothing came to me. She walked out of that store then went into the Hollister right next to it. she glanced at me a few times before she walked in. i was trying not to look back heh. a few minutes had passed. I was still trying to think of something to say and also "what about lina?". The ever crushing and irrelevant thought that is. But it kind of helps because i think i know what she or anyone else in my situation would do. Without knowing what to say or anymore hesitation I went towards the store anyway in hopes of finding her. I'll just make up what im going to say as i go. Walked around the store twice. she was gone. Had probably walked out just as i was going in the other way. Well, thats the price i pay for hesitation. I dont think i really would have wanted a relationship with her. I think this is all just more of me building self confidence. But just getting a few looks helps me out. Also keeps my mind off other troubling things in my life.
After that venture in the mall, we all got some well deserved relaxation and swimming in the rain. Even though it was cold as hell, that was the furthest thing in my mind.
Well, I need to finish my Photoshop projects which are due today and also work on completing the last part of my robot in maya. Need to finish up incompleted works in my sketchpad as well. so many things. not enough time to do it all. I need a clear mind to do it. God help me, I need you more than ever.
my rest last night was dream filled..