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Well, that makes sense.
Charlotte said we should still be friends, we just need a break. Then a month later she just tells me to leave her alone and to move on. Which I don't understand, considering she said loved me and cared about me so much, so I figured fuck it, lets just be friends. Then I just see a photobooth picture of her and some other dude kissing and such. That makes sense. Shes' with someone else. that's why it's so easy for her to move on. I guess when you're 19/20 you can tell whoever that you love them and care about them and not mean shit. You can tell someone that you just don't have time for a relationship or whatever, and then go be in one with someone else.
Likely she was already seeing him or whatever when she broke up with me in june.
She has a knack for never saying the truth, just making shit up and then running from it.
fuck.
Oh well. she moved on to someone else. at least in the last month the constant nausea has gone away. the bad dreams.
it's funny how every relationship I throw myself into fully. and doing that just leaves me more damaged each time and less in the next relationship. i don't know what to do about it. i don't know what to do about anything.
I'm so afraid of being alone, but it's what i am the most.
i found someone i really loved for almost 2 years, and i thought they felt the same. now i don't know what the fuck they felt. that likely they're just some kid and i'm the stupid fuck because i believed them.
i'm 26 and i feel like i'm learning shit i should have known 10 years ago.
Charlotte said we should still be friends, we just need a break. Then a month later she just tells me to leave her alone and to move on. Which I don't understand, considering she said loved me and cared about me so much, so I figured fuck it, lets just be friends. Then I just see a photobooth picture of her and some other dude kissing and such. That makes sense. Shes' with someone else. that's why it's so easy for her to move on. I guess when you're 19/20 you can tell whoever that you love them and care about them and not mean shit. You can tell someone that you just don't have time for a relationship or whatever, and then go be in one with someone else.
Likely she was already seeing him or whatever when she broke up with me in june.
She has a knack for never saying the truth, just making shit up and then running from it.
fuck.
Oh well. she moved on to someone else. at least in the last month the constant nausea has gone away. the bad dreams.
it's funny how every relationship I throw myself into fully. and doing that just leaves me more damaged each time and less in the next relationship. i don't know what to do about it. i don't know what to do about anything.
I'm so afraid of being alone, but it's what i am the most.
i found someone i really loved for almost 2 years, and i thought they felt the same. now i don't know what the fuck they felt. that likely they're just some kid and i'm the stupid fuck because i believed them.
i'm 26 and i feel like i'm learning shit i should have known 10 years ago.