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so i'm fucking dumb.
I went to portland yesterday for matt's birthday party.
went to that and then jason and i rode to beulahland to meet up w/ kevin and teri. then the bar closed.
Tyler called and told me he was at a party in n. portland and that charlotte was there. of course, being drunk, i rode up there to talk to her.
kiran started flipping out like a crazy bitch, so we walked around the corner to talk.
basically i'm retarded.
i thought i could talk to her and make things ok.
instead it just made me feel worse.
it took 24 years to find someone that made me feel how she did.
how can i believe that someone else will just show up anytime?
there's nothing shittier than the person that you've been in love w/ for 2 years telling you that they don't want to be with you. they rather see other people. it makes everything they said feel like a lie.
things aren't going to be ok. things never got better before so why would they now?
She said she hated when people would tell her that they're glad we got back together because i was happier. but then at the same time she tells me that she didn't think she made me happy? i don't understand any of her shit.
anyway. she walked away. i went to leave and my tires were flat and all the stuff tore out of my tires including my memorial card for mikey. I know it was kiran.
I was stranded in n. portland.
i walked around for a bit, then walked to the max by 5am. rode it to beaverton and then sat there until 8 when my dad finally met up w/ me.
awesome.
Some kid shot himself in his car the other night in front of my cousin's house a couple blocks from me.
They just covered the car and left it there for a day.
I went to portland yesterday for matt's birthday party.
went to that and then jason and i rode to beulahland to meet up w/ kevin and teri. then the bar closed.
Tyler called and told me he was at a party in n. portland and that charlotte was there. of course, being drunk, i rode up there to talk to her.
kiran started flipping out like a crazy bitch, so we walked around the corner to talk.
basically i'm retarded.
i thought i could talk to her and make things ok.
instead it just made me feel worse.
it took 24 years to find someone that made me feel how she did.
how can i believe that someone else will just show up anytime?
there's nothing shittier than the person that you've been in love w/ for 2 years telling you that they don't want to be with you. they rather see other people. it makes everything they said feel like a lie.
things aren't going to be ok. things never got better before so why would they now?
She said she hated when people would tell her that they're glad we got back together because i was happier. but then at the same time she tells me that she didn't think she made me happy? i don't understand any of her shit.
anyway. she walked away. i went to leave and my tires were flat and all the stuff tore out of my tires including my memorial card for mikey. I know it was kiran.
I was stranded in n. portland.
i walked around for a bit, then walked to the max by 5am. rode it to beaverton and then sat there until 8 when my dad finally met up w/ me.
awesome.
Some kid shot himself in his car the other night in front of my cousin's house a couple blocks from me.
They just covered the car and left it there for a day.